-emails with the subject: do you feel like being brave? in them - if opened and YES is typed and SEND is clicked
will put new skin on words like
what your afraid of the most may be where God wants to use you the most. silence the voice of fear with faith -layne schranz
in my small shadowed life God showed Himself faithful to me i experienced by doing what i knew in my head and craved deep in my spirit
what i had read in umpteen books but so desperately wanted to experience myself but little did i know that it would be TBT as i audaciously trusted God and subsequently transported to jr. high and all the old tapes of
your not good enough you aren't pretty enough you don't say the right things you don't fit in
were on replay..over and over again as cracks in my salvation armor and sword hung to heavy to wield. i sat in my hotel room and cried i felt stupid and vulnerable and wanted to run back home and wrap myself in my security blanket where i know i am loved for all my flaws and broken places
but ya'll...by His grace i didn't leave...didn't run i stood in Jesus's strength by offering Him my weakness...He is mighty in our weakness!!
what was trying to surface was the fear of not being loved and i wanted these girls to love me
so i took a risk and text a friend and asked for prayer
and she wielded the sword over me .. for me she reminded me to practice these words because everything is a practice
here were the words that became my mantra i trust you jesus
because you see..i knew i knew i knew that i was meant to be here to many God stories that worked out for this to happen! i can't tell you why the only thing i know is that in all the crazy moments that were unfolding inside of me the #eyesclosed moments when i couldn't take any good pictures like everyone else arrived exhausted - just overcoming the fear of flying about did me in...haha!! my legs swelled huge i lived on cheesecake and biscuits because i couldn't eat much of what they had i quietly fought to find bathroom time to take care of the "bag"...with 250 plus women that was a little challenging i felt so out of place...which was my own "junk"
in the midst of ALL of this what God gave me was eyes to see THIS
women who loved, prayed and spoke grace over me that soothed my newly exposed skin..words like these from danielle burkleo unless God is closing a door keep walking through them STOP OVERANALYZING and FEARING everything instead LISTEN and say YES to God
i was on sacred ground when hannah singer's words fell scars - visible or not - are reminders to us of God's provision - you don't have to be free of the circumstances to be FREE -
leslie padgett's words hooked my pain so i was able to enter into hers.. everything broken and lost is a testimony psalm 119:111 - God takes us to the grand canyon of our fears and asks "do you trust Me now?" Pain offers a CHOICE always to participate or not - God will not tell you what to do until you know who you are -
what if we began to look at pain as a teacher?
i think our small group has a forever crush on honey holden..did ya'll know she is a grandma too? #grandmapower it won't ALWAYS be this way - and that our STORIES are written in seasons - and WELL..paw paws really ARE SEXY!! #pawpawsaresexy
our CALLING FIRST is to Jesus - as He leads us - He will show us how to use our gifts or change them - lauren chandler
jenny simmons words were anointed when she told the prison story and my heart couldn't contain the words "turn around and look at my daughter's"
and take time to throw candy - yes...besides "new skin" in shauna niequist story i would have to say throwing candy was powerful!
they became my blanket of security..wrapping me in their acceptance love ..
these women these words became my blanket that weekend they became living pieces of vulnerability for me to witness
i was humbled i was reminded i was challenged i was stripped
i saw no matter what her story was i related in some way i learned something
i found God to be faithful
He showed up just like He promised me He would i am practicing giving Jesus room to prove Himself faithful...
and i left with fresh new skin that burned with every word and every tear that fell my cup was more and more full
i left with an amazing diverse group of women who inspire me to be the best me who encourage me that God really is giving me a new song to sing and that one day i will sing it
how to get there you ask?
choose to be brave in whatever is in front of you EVERYTHING is a PRACTICE be open to receive good gifts from God
BRAVERY requires vulnerability
being brave has no boundaries you don't have to have a catastrophic story to have a story little or big in your eyes makes no difference - God wants to give you HOPE in your story
i can know many facts about bravery..read every book sing every song have 100 quotes around my house but until i trust God with me and my story change will never occur be until i DO or CHOOSE to prACTice DAILY
running TO fear wielding my sword of FAITH and asking for help along the way so i can grow. change.
Jesus is a relationship. He never disappoints. His plans for us are only good. this season is only temporary. it will pass
but here is the moral of the story more than likely it will hurt or be uncomfortable that is way we have to take up courage and do it afraid
i may not over know this side of heaven what all of this was for other than i did it!
i flew and i didn't die
and if i want to continue to live in God's wide & SPACIOUS place...in FREEDOM then i will have to choose to take up COURAGE every.single.time
choosing to let Jesus continue to put more and more skin on the hard words
that if i choose to let fear win i forfeit healing when i feel the pain and step into it i allow God to get in my surrender is FREEDOM my surrender is HEALING & WHOLENESS
there is HOPE in your story and He whispers over you today and everyday see...i am doing a New thing..can you not see it? that being foolishly courageous is being all in - shannon martin challenges us in hard ways not just with her words but by her life..she is the picture of brave in the flesh..she DOES LIFE
that is the secret - what God is showing us..DO IT..praACTice it daily...it makes CHANGE and don't forget to throw candy!
move out of your comfort zone. you can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new