we took the weekend to finish cleaning up & clearing out the old house. moving the rest of the stuff into the shop. moving is exhuastingisn't it? the chapter is closing and a grand one is beginning. i'm scared to death and excited all at the same time!
a silly sidenote: I just realized yesterday that our two new addresses both equal 10!
i don't know the words to tell you how i am feeling these days so i will share two photos that "kinda" capture it. i started a new pin board titled .me. it is sort of a "vision board" to help me get to know me...and what that "looks like".
here is the first one - i am terrified of heights...and to swim in lakes so this kinda captures that stomach in your throat..eyes closed freefall
this is the other one...
THIS one...to me...captures just a little what it feels like when God's love and grace POURS down on me like RAIN! and the funny thing is i am seeing FIRE all around me! like in my quiet times with God...FIRE words my friend speaks a song to me...FIRE my sign is aries...FIRE and in Hebrews 12:29 this morning... God Himself is FIRE
i don't understand it...i just see it...pray it...journal it
it burns inside...lissa said it this way, " i have FIRE in my belly" i have known fire in my bones for a long time. i never knew what to DO with it..or really what it was now don't get me wrong...i still don't KNOW what it is or what to DO with it except
LISTEN to it!
the unexplainable thing is how His love rain fills the empty places and yet...leaves me wanting more the fire is burning while the rain simultaneously leaves me screaming Your name abba!!
there are so many things going on in my life right now and honestly...some things fall through the cracks. some balls drop. i am focusing on my relationship with God and the business and really just LISTENING and GOING where i feel He is leading i can't explain it to you...i don't understand it
the exodus house a SHOP that happened in 3 days...literally!! i have GOT to tell you the story! it is SO God! i still laugh like sarah must have laughed thinking of it
but i DO know God is moving He wants us to LISTEN the promise of the promised land still stands..we can still enter into it but we must BELIEVE and not doubt there is the letting go...the taking a RISK!
speaking of RISKS! i am so far out here girls....so FAR several times a day myself asks myself " WHAT in the world are you doing?!
but you know what? the material things can be nice but i am keenly aware that they are GIFTS and meant to be enjoyed i am still learning to enjoy good gifts from my abba!! but not worshipped or the means to an end the BEST thing ever is getting to know God more...and deeper and taking His hand and going on a GRAND ADVENTURE ..WITH Him
we will go on together girls...i don't know where we will end up it could all fall apart in the end...that is what the LIES tell me everyday but the TRUTH is it could end up to be the most amazing comeback story...EVER!! God has this one...i believe that! God is above ALL things...yes yes and yes!!
it's better than sex! i know...GASP! the S word...i'm 45..i'm over that...ha! just sayin!
my season of life and circumstances maybe different than yours. my kids are grown for the most part. i still have grace who is 14 but i don't have little ones anymore so i have more freedom than i did when i was a mom of young ones
my fingers are cracked and bleeding from work.. stain and paint under my nails everyday my hair is thrown up into a messy ponytail or bun mu daily attire is paint clothes not much time to go out on the town getting all dolled up my laundry is in piles boxes are still strewn all over the house waiting for be put away
I USED to believe God just came in and did the rescuing now i KNOW it takes hard work on my part...PRAYING hard and long...for years sometimes. at the same time .. when it is GOD's TIME...things are effortless. they just HAPPEN! you see Him everywhere!! HIS PART...it blows my mind!!
the SHOP is in full force and is fast becoming our second home
the days are FULL my heart is on FIRE
and i don't know much or do many things well but the ONE thing i am hearing and responding too is to let God LIVE FREE within my LIFE i am deconstructing false constructs (LIES) i have been taught and rebuilding from the ground up!!
it really hit home when i was asked to fill out a page telling about ME and i couldn't answer hardly a one of them!
i don't know WHO i am...no wonder i was whatever to whoever!!
it is so much more than an exodus house..it is my exodus i am making a commitment to share more often about that here..everyday or two. so many many of you have prayed through with me and supported me with you words and i can't thank you enough! i wish we could sit together over coffee and just talk for hours! you have asked about a home tour and i promise i will be sharing all of that so very soon. just taking a little time to get things in their place!!
we just added our first POSTER to the SHOP! ( link on the sidebar ) it is printed on a high quality archival paper and is SUPER nice
so i will leave you with these words for monday fill in the blank with YOUR name!!
___________ LIVE COURAGEOUS
love LOVE love to each of you today!!!!
**i am having trouble with linking and images...just something weird going on with my computer...so i couldn't link to lissa, the shop, my .me. pin board or the images...i will work on it:)