"if we dwell on all the things that could go wrong, we'll be to afraid to take another step"
ruth had lived in fear all during the months of mahlons illness, and it had accomplished nothing...after mahlon's death, she decided she would never again allow her mind to dwell on things beyond her control
I started my photography business back in September of 2013 and it has pushed me out of my comfort zone like nothing else. I think sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith. The past has proven me to be a slow and steady kind of girl, taking few risks, and therefore, not really changing or growing much in any way. I think I've unknowingly preferred the safety of the nest rather than taking the risk of testing my wings. I suppose I figured there was no failure in the same ol' same ol'. After awhile the "same ol'" started to feel rather boring and I felt this yearning like I was made for something more yet I just sat here inside the same four walls. The ugly truth is that I doubted God's plan for me figuring that I had it wrong and there wasn't something "extra special" planned for me. I actually reserved myself to accepting my role as wife and mom, choosing to be content with just that. But still that little tickle in my soul... this tiny seedling of hope that if I jumped out of the nest God would teach me to fly.
i know some of her words. i have lived them. God has been using her risk taking steps to fly to encourage my heart! as a little girl all i wanted was to have a family. to get married and have babies. to be a mom and wife was the pinnacle of "how it was supposed to be"in my mind. and i made sure it happened. it still amazes me the power of the human will to orchestrate a life that we think is safe. i put all i was and all i knew into those roles.
what i learned was if you throw all of yourself into someone else..or something else YOU get lost years go by and if we're not careful .. we wake up one day old and full of regret i don't want to choose that. to settle for that
i used to think that the passions i had were meant to be hidden that when i could do something good ... i felt guilty good things didn't really happen to me and if they did i felt guilty because so many others were struggling
i didn't give myself permission to shine. it seemed nonspiritual to me prideful even? i am passionate about truth..trust..my relationship with God in all of its messy growth i fight hard for my convictions and often my impetuousness gets me into hot water what i didn't know then that i am understanding more now is that abba has provided me with circumstances to teach me how to use the gifts He has placed within me that i need to stop living trusting fear and start putting actions to trusting God..in real life..not daydreams within my days. doing something tangible..you know?
i always felt that passion was weird somehow like i never quite fit in but i am learning that to grow..to move forward i must let go off all these lies and say yes to what God has before me
to take risks that make me feel uncomfortable and make me want to run the other way but i haven't not yet i have days that just bomb..maybe consecutive days even the difference is i choose to get back up. i must!
i can't explain it but i am curious to take God at His word this time i wonder if it is providence. His timing for all i know all of the years before have led up to this moment the hard part for me is waiting. waiting for that right time letting the story unfold a wee bit more i have learned that God isn't going to light a bush on fire for me saying
tiff - this is exactly what you are to do..and here is how you are to do iti do see feel His heat upon my heart
my normal has always been fear living but i know now that is not living
like ruth..i have learned that living in fear and dwelling on things i cannot control accomplishes nothing and like the old fan we replaced with a new gold sparkly light
is kinda how i see the fresh new growth in my life a new direction and it is spilling out into every area of my life it isn't the absence of hard though...or pain
it is like the turning of the seasons..new growth springing up while simultaneously the old shrivels up and fades
so instead of dwelling on things i cannot control or feeling stuck believing lies
i am letting go and allowing life to move me as the Spirit moves one thing i am making a habit of is
taking risks since we closed the shop several months ago while i recovering from surgery i had time to really hear God and it was during this time that for lack of a better word the vision for the new signs came into being
we are taking the next risky step and making everything more cohesive here on the blog..in our home i have started a new pin board called my exodus home more on this in the coming weeks...
i want where i am the things i am being taught to have the same feel as what we create
i have been praying for sometime for a new direction with our signs..to set ourselves apart a little to find our own niche and i hope you will find that in the coming months as we show our hearts to you
through our t-shirts - mugs - bags and paper-goods
that they will inspire YOU to take those risks to not live in FEAR so much to see YOUR dreams that God placed in your heart years ago begin to GROW
all of these things will slowly be added in the coming months the t-shirts will begin to be added to the shop next week so stay tuned to instagram for the first peeks
when we find that what we have been doing isn't working and we are seeing the same results it is time to do something different. just like the old fan. it had served its purpose but it was in need of an update a fresh look
the strands of crystals catch the light and together cast a pattern of dots across the room bathing the room in captivating sparkles
each one of us is like a crystal. a unique blending of gifts, personality, quirks and history --that when strung together cast a light so bright it captivates those looking on and i don't know about YOU but i want to shine not only for my good but for all those looking to find their way bring glory to God..really it is releasing those in prisons of fear, shame, guilt by us being released..it is these things that give God glory!
how about YOU? in what ways have you seen that living in fear has accomplished nothing? maybe this weekend spend some time thinking on what it would look like if you just took the next step..you know the one? the one that you can't take because you have been paralyzed with fear? this isn't about anyone else's story. it is between YOU and God
abba..we thank you that we have a God who is not made of wood stone or any man made substance. You are a God who created the whole world..and yet..you have gone to unfathomable measures to have a relationship with us. we thank you for the circumstances we find ourselves in today for they are our teachers. only You can take to our eyes what is ugly and useless and turn it into something of beauty. we thank you for your grace that looks at us in our own nakedness and loves us clean through. so i come this morning with the only thing of value i have...my trust. here abba...there is no one on heaven or earth that i can come to..that hears me like You do so abba i pray in the midst of my life...and the lives of my friends who you know even now .. those reading..those who like me find ourselves reckless in our love for you. we know how frail we are in our human form but we long to see freedom...we long to see You revive Your work in the midst of our years...in my 45th year abba REVIVE Your work...it isn't to late! you want what is good for us .. your plans for us are good..to prosper us in all kinds of ways but also You want glory..help us to not cause harm to others by our words and actions to SHINE for you..to be like the women of faith before us...ruth, rahab, tamar...may their hearts that burned for YOU burn within us today... in jesus name