food in its PURE form - is good it is not an enemy. sadly - what has happened to food. is.
however YOU choose to feed YOUR family is a personal journey. one that can change drastically over the course of a lifetime.
i respect your journey you know?..wink! i'm not "it's all my way over here" just so ya know! i want to remain a student until i die
these words struck a chord with me over the years and as i skimmed over them again this morning my fingers pressing on the page as if to sear them into my heart
and they walked after emptiness and became empty -jeremiah 2: 5
this is the season of recovery. and i cannot rush it..control it ..i CAN try to mask it..hide it and smile pretending that it isn't there and i am pretty darn good at that. i have no idea what i'm doing most days. how much longer until i get there. is there a there even? a point a place that i will KNOW. i am wearied to the bone playing the game and what if i just die and my story dies with me? is there someone else out there who knows my story - who is living my story? realizing that i am more than just an object..i am a breathing heart! on some days..ok most days i am a 2 year old child asking to many questions..and "seemingly" not many solid answers am i holding. so i seek His very face..i need it more than my breath so i can no longer apologize for it. so very much like my soul friend..i identify so with her words. i too - cling to promises given to me years ago..and those given each and everyday i seek for them. they truly are my heart bleeds #myheart so maybe God did give me the answer during the last hospital stay and i am just scared of the what ïfs"
i don't want to walk after things in life that may bring temporary happy but in the end hold nothing. i want to spend the rest of my days filling up on good things...body AND soul
SO maybe this is an opportunity..an invitation to step into the simple past and plant it into my family's heart so they in turn may reap the harvest. that the simple past times long ago enjoyed will be brought back into everyday living.
maybe it is time to move forward and leave what is behind. to forge a new path..the one less traveled just maybe the bend up ahead that a whole new vista opens up...an invitation to join the then to the now.
this season we are foraging some new to us paths. trying not to analyze food to death but trying to find a way back to just plain wholesome real food. in taking the time to plan gather prepare and serve does stirs my soul.
food is more than feeding the body i believe it is feeding the soul...the whole me
it is myself trying to reconcile within the harried busy technological society we live in the "how to" connect the cooking hanging laundry cleaning the house gardening nesting sitting on the porch drinking sweet tea taking long walks in the evening canning mushroom hunting raising animals..farm life sitting by the pond -- fishing all of these things means wholeness. peace.
i am an older momma now. my children are not small and dependent on me like when they were younger. in fact, they are at the age they need to be taught to think for themselves what and why to how they will choose to nourish their bodies. i am now more in the role of a teacher
in my search for nourishment i read about gwyneth's cookbook It's All Good and knew in my GUT i had to have it and i am happy to share that i am LOVING IT so far! our GUT knows US doesn't it? my gut isn't YOUR gut nor is your gut MINE:) i find it so funny she is getting such backlash from it...anywhoo
i went to whole foods over the weekend to gather supplies. i believe this will turn into a once a month trip to buy chicken and fish and a few other things due to the price of things + the gas/time to travel there. I think i can go to several places to get the best of all of them if i can come up with a plan.
maybe we are modern day hippies .. lol! i think i would be ok with that
here is our menu for the week
we had the black bean taco's and some baked apples and it went over really well. it is my new favorite thing. the black beans were SUPER easy for busy momma's and even my Khloey loved them:)
here is the recipe
go to black beans
2 tablespoons extra virgin olive oil 1 garlic clove, finely chopped a 15oz can black beans 4 springs of cilantro a pinch of course sea salt
heat the olive oil in a small pot set over medium heat. add the garlic and cook, stirring, just until frequent, 1 or 2 minutes. add the entire can of beans including the liquid, the cilantro, and the salt and turn the heat to high. Once the beans begin to boil, turn the heat to low and simmer until the beans have lost thier tin can flavor and arne't to watery, about 15 minutes. remove the cilantro before serving. ( i cooked mine longer)
--seriously - these were really good. i am NOT a huge bean fan but i can eat these by themselves! -the grandkids even ate the beans! AND the son-in-law tried a bit...change is possible -we enjoyed the baked apples but next time i will try and buy the honeycrisp apples because they would be bombalicious!
what can we momma's each do to turn from emptiness and embrace fullness...i'd LOVE to hear your heart
have a beautiful monday girls
the HIPPIE girl signing out...:)