"I purpose" to not be stronger and kill myself...

One thing I love about a new month is that it gives opportunity for a fresh start and girls .. I can't put into words how I need one.

I have gotten so upside down with this business that I have lost vital pieces of my life.  And by golly I want them back.  

Searching for nourishment has led me to several things

May purposes look a little something like this


I purpose to spend just simple time with God every morning .. SIMPLE .. a letting go of my plans & wants..CONTROL and STRIVING and let go and relax into me following Him.  Back to remembering ONE day at a time.  I am setting my clock a little earlier but I refuse to beat myself up when I fall short...cause I will.

I purpose to do my dishes, laundry...basically maintain a tidy home.  NOT a perfect one.  One that is lived in and since I do work from home I will cut myself some slack but NO MORE of the business holding my home and family hostage

I purpose to complete {being the key word} 3 of my projects on MY house in the month of May!!...tall order {sigh}

I will purpose to cook dinners at least 4 times a week.  SIMPLE ones.  We are eating out way to much = to much money + grease = not good!

I purpose to ENJOY my calling..to listen to GOD's leading..take all concerns and complitments and suggestions to HIM first.

I purpose to put my family first.  My work was taking priority over all of these areas.  I have not been able to take a weekend off...go to the movies...I've missed going to causal lunches..communicating with friends..

to be really honest sometime I would like to take a whole Sunday and sit in my PJ's in bed and just watch TV!  just ONCE in awhile


I don't want to live striving and surviving and miss moments in my life that I will never get back.  LIFE is to short.  

I LOVE LOVE LOVE what I'm doing.  What GOD is doing...I trust there is so much more ahead but before He can move forward I feel led to get a handle on this chaos because it is not true

that what doesn't kill you  makes you stronger...sometimes it really can kill you!

June 1 I will report back here and let ya'll know how I'm doing...and in the in between days too;0

Now it is your turn:)

Have you been?  Am I crazy here?  the only one that is going through this?  Do you feel like you have a zillion balls in the air and can't seem to find time for the really important things?  If so ~ what are you doing to change it?:)

I've got some fun news to share next week.  I smiling ear to ear just being able to share our hearts here.  Thank you for listening to mine.  I would love to hear yours as well?