a few questions answered...your turn at the end & pictures

What a beautiful Wednesday.  The birds are singing outside my window as I type.  It is time I sit down and address a few questions ya'll have asked me.

This is me.  I'm in the middle with my two youngest kids on either side.  Oblivious to their antics while Nikki ( my oldest daughter who is 26 ) was shooting the picture.


 I will be 44 this April.  Yeah for the 40's!!;)  I have 5 children.

Nikki 26 who is not married and lives at home with me.

Chelsee who is 25.  Married to Phillip.  They own a donut shop an hour and a half away and he is a part time youth pastor of a church a mile from where I live.  They travel up here on Wednesday's and Sunday's.  They have 3 children and one on the way this June.

So I have 4 grand children.  One grandson Reed who is 4.  And three grand daughters.  Karalina - 3.  Khloey - 1 and Kynzie still in mommy's tummy:)

 This is Reedster's.  He is our sensitive boy.  Sweet and the first born so he corrals his sisters.  Not sure he is liking being the only boy though.

They took him to the sonogram and he was upset to say the least:)

This is the fierce Karalina who has a little froggy voice and demands attention upon walking in the room.  Her voice is...LOUD:)

Chelsee says our sign that says " even though she be but little she is fierce " is a perfect match for our K.  We are waiting for her to grow some hair.  She is so tiny for three I think Khloey will catch up to her by next year.

She is our sweet quiet one.  Until she has a temper tantrum...full blown throwing the head back..laying down and kicking kind.  Yeah...remember those girls?  She then is not so quiet.  She is quite deceptive.  She has a very loud cry.  And this girl takes after her grandma in that she LOVES to eat!!

Auntie Nikki made mashed potatoes last week and this girl said..mmmmmm after every bite.  She comes to anyone who is eating and opens her mouth.  Adorable!

This is Nikki.  My first born.  My cohort in crime.  My best friend.  We are alike in so many things and opposite in the things that are needful.  I think that is why we work together so well.  We started our sign & furniture business at Restoration Emporium in February.  She is going part time at the insurance agency she works at starting next week.  I will have her on Thursdays and Fridays!!  I am so excited to hit the business even harder.

We have so many fun ideas that we will be implementing so stay tuned!:)

Plus begin remodeling our house that we moved into this last November.  More on that further on down.

Then Reece who is 21.  Sadly he is off doing his own thing.  I haven't seen him in several years.  Praying is what I do.

I found this picture of all of us from the Fourth of July 2005.  Reece is on the far left.  Wow have they all grown up!

and then

There is Dakota.  He is a junior this year.  All of the senior stuff will begin very soon.  I can't believe this little boy is 17!  He is a good kid.  He was a mama's boy growing up and I know I spoiled him but I think a few years ago I began to cut the apron strings:)  Just wishing I could get him to clean his room!!  I stopped doing that for him and funny thing is they don't care!!  They live in the mess.  Boys!

He plays football.  LOVES his car and his girlfriend.  I love her too.  They are going to prom April 21 and I am super excited.  I want Nikki to do a photo shoot of them.  Her name is Elise and she is everything I've prayed for.  Now I don't know if they will get married.  WAY to soon to think about that because she goes to college at MU this fall.  BUT I'm just saying.  It is hard for a mama to love her son's girl/wife....you know what I'm saying mom's of boys?

This is Elise.  He is 6'3 and she is 5' 11 I think.  They fit together perfectly.  She loves it that she can wear heels and still be shorter than him.

 Last but not least is our Loubert.  Her nickname.  Lou became her nick name because one of her middle names is Louise after her Nana.  Her full name is Grace Kerrington Louise..

She is the baby but doesn't act like one at all.  She was a competitive gymnast at GAGE for 4 and a half years.  She quit in December 2010 right before getting her very own floor routine at level 8.  But we understood.  She worked out 30 hours a week and her body showed it:)

This is a picture of her first weeks after starting level 4.  The coach of the team where she was cheer leading at was watching her and asked her if she would like to join the team and the rest is history.

 Grace and her bestie..Sydney.  They were going to a Father Daughter dance on Valentines day.  Crazy pipes!!  Crazy girls

How I miss all those girls and their mama's some days.

Her is her posing for Nikki on the beach in Florida at her Aunt Amber's wedding.

she was beautiful on the floor and beam...a big sigh:(

and we live here now.  In Missouri.  We moved here this last November.  It is my husbands mom's house.  She lived here for over 30 years.  My husband and his siblings grew up here.  His mom moved about two hours away.  She bought a house with some land.

Here is the verse God gave me before we even moved here and after moving in it made more sense.

DWELL in the land and cultivate faithfulness

God knows our hearts.  We have moved about 20 times in the same area over the last 15 years.  Pure crazyiness.

I believe God is showing me that now is our time to settle in.  To make a home.

Are you separated?  Yes and no.  We have been separated several times.  This last time I moved to a house and he moved to his moms.

And here in is where God intervened in such a way that I STILL can't believe it.  If you would have told me a year ago all of this would have happened I would have laughed.  I don't talk about it much on my blog for obvious reasons.  It is personal.  On the other hand it is my story and my reality and I believe in the future I would like to write a book on it.

I know crazy abusive relationships exists everywhere.  They aren't limited to just poor people or scary looking people.  And they aren't just all cases of hitting the woman.  They can be so crazy making.

To make it short...my husband owned his own business for years.  Handled it poorly.  After separting this last year God opened a door for him that has taken him to another state.  A job that has insurance!  which we never had AND pays pretty well.  After talking to trusted people I thought it best to move us into his mom's home since he is never home anymore.  He has been back twice since October and only for a few days each time.

I had given up hope of things EVER changing!  The funny thing is now his checks come to me and he is not in control of the money anymore.  So things are SLOWLY...becoming more routine.  There is so much more on all of this but to answer your question if he were living back here yes we would still be separated.  As of now we are married and his checks are coming to us.  I don't know what the future holds and honestly I don't go there.  Right now the kids and I are happy.

On my end God has opened a wide door for me.  I am creating..loving..trusting..meeting new people.  Coming out of my shell.  Coming into WHO I am purposed to be.  Living my dream.  I am happy and at peace and I am doing my best to live in the present moments.  Staying away from negetive manipulative people and being attentive daily to what God is doing around me.  Being thankful for every little thing I can.

Is it HARD?  You bet it is.  Growing is going out of your comfort zone.  It is stretching and that hurts.  But I am doing just that.  God's timing is ALWAYS perfect.  Would you do it again?  Yes...12 years of HELL to get here..where God has me now?  Yes..I would.


tell me..how many children you have?  grandbabies?  what state you live in?  just something about YOU:)

I want to know about YOU....