dreams::{stop wishing}

In hindsight I realize my marriage separation was stepping through a Wall of Fear.  The pain I am feeling in my heart is blood rushing to the dead places.  Making alive again!  The dirt is caked under the cracks and crevices of my heart.  My heart needs washing in the Water.  I opened the door expecting to see what was written in my mind only today experiencing a different landscape. I wrestled last week with depression but this time..I didn't do it alone.  I had courage with me.  I had God's presence with me.  I can see some of the purpose in it all now.  At the end of the week He showed me that these last 10 years or so have been a wasteland..

a time of  preparation so that today I can begin living my dream!   My landscape has changed to a Sanctuary.  I am spiritually, emotionally & physically depleted.  I need to be filled, washed and restored.  He makes me lie down beside still waters.  This is one of the gifts of my landscape right now.  Time.  Time to be in His presence where the last traces of the Wasteland can be washed away.  A time of slowing down and being restored.




three words that surfaced last week.  They are hard words for me.  But I want to choose them.

For the first time I have written my dream down on paper.  I've carried this dream in embryo form all of these years.  It is scary to write down your dream.  It looms impossible doesn't it?  I've picked up The Dream Giver after 10 years?  It spoke to my heart in a fresh new way.  I'm ready to hear it now.  I am still struck silent by what I think God is doing .. it is almost to big to even believe.  

I am choosing to live my dream from this day forward..not just live my life.  I choose to please Him not myself or others.  There is a dream that only I can fill.  I can't wait to scribble it all down here.

Did you know there is a dream that you were made to fill?  one that is just for you?  you have had it since you were little. 
What have you always wanted to do but didn't because life got in the way?  it is scary to write out isn't it?


29.   choosing the dream
30.   fighting the giant..depression
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