Life continues...

to go on...
and it will go on without us if we don't choose to
why not BE in it
This last weekend I chose to stop striving - asking - trying to understand
and just ENJOY 
what one never knows could
be the last breath you take
and I am not going allowing that unhealthy mindset to poison my life any more!

I baked cookies...and then BAKED some more cookies

I DIDN'T clean...
I didn't do laundry
I looked all around me at the strung out mess from
room to room
and { I acknowledged it and said I would get to it another time }
guess what?  the family didn't even care!

I watched a friendship grow

I love her mischievous eyes here...

enjoyed Grace re-telling  the church Christmas play
I went to church
got a Bible study...Beth Moore's Breaking Free 

Breaking Free: The Journey, The Stories - Leader Kit

went to a cookie exchange where I had not seen this side of the family
for over 20 years...uncomfortable? you bet...did it anyway
{{ I got to catch up with my sister there though!! }}

enjoyed our first snow

watched White Christmas { gosh that girl is skinny }
drank hot chocolate my new favorite way
enjoyed my nephew playing with my hair

grieved over Grace's decision to quit gymnastics { after 3.5 years }
watched her condition
a " remember "  picture of her calloused hands from working bars
but happy with her choice to pursue dance
{ more on that later }


it was MORE than doing these things
It was my heart and soul relishing in them as if it were
permissible even desirable to ENJOY life

I pray you - too
have more and more times of being present 
than just going through the motions
rushing from here to there
worrying about impressing who knows WHO
just stopping and seeing if the whole universe ends
because you permit yourself to ENJOY who and what
God has placed around you.

enjoying today...what about you?:)
I appreciate and cherish all of you that read my struggle
and are so supportive
I am thinking there have been prayers
because I can tell a difference
Someday I want to share a victorious story with all of you

excited to share today with Jen and the girls at
Finding Heaven Today