we got a lot accomplished this weekend like making our menu and shopping for it
picked another color to try on our walls
we cleaned a lot
we purchased some things to make a few really awesome projects…hoping so anyway…:)
ate with family…always FUN:) food…i love food
what did you do?
here is my dilemma today: i am a hard core runner!
i have some peter in me…i will not deny you jesus….i get ya peter…i do!!
not the kind that pounds the pavement however…although pavement has come into play
i am a runner aheader : the runner that when things are moving forward at an alarming rate i go just keep going without stopping to ask for directions
which has been known to find me hurled headlong INTO the pavement..only to come up bruised and bloody…ick!
nowadays — whether i really am wiser or i am just 45…you be the judge
i am more comfortable with acknowledging that while these tendencies can and are be usedfor awesome things
many time they have gotten me ahead of God
so this morning when i was aroused from my fitful sleep at 3:30 am…i thought i might as well grab a cup of coffee
and have a conversation with my abba
i told you here that i had been steeping in these verses ( yes, instead of running all over in the bible like i can do….this must be a tendency of mine…ha)
so i went to those verses AND read the rest of colossians…which btw i am really identifying with. i think i might begin to memorize it…anyway
after all of that…writing in my journal things that were impressed on my heart – i turned to joshua and there i read
joshua was up early and on his way from shittim with all the people of israel with him. he arrived at he jordan and camped before crossing over. after three days, leaders went through the camp and gave out orders to the people: “when you see the covenant-chest of God, your God, carried by the levitical priests, start moving. follow it. make sure you keep a proper distance between you and it, about half a mile–be sure now to keep your distance!-and you’ll clearly see the route to take. TIFFINI YOU have NEVER been this way before!! — joshua 3:1-4
ok..was that something i need to listen to? to DO something with…well i think so!!
there is lots of action words here FOLLOW..start MOVING…i have been listening and moving–following when i feel God showing me too…but the reminder here..for me anyways
is to follow far enough behind God to be able to see which way He is showing me to go
REMEMBER - i have NEVER been this way before. this is all new territory for me and i still feel like this picture!!
isn’t that awesome? abba knows this about me and He knows i want to grow in this area
learn HOW to bridle this FIRE…does that make sense? ok…hope so:)
it’s monday..yep and today i am going to practice rest. not a static thing..i see it as a steady rhythm–moving through my busy day but instead of having my eyes to the grindstone i want to be focused upward and outward…ALERT to where abba is working..where i might need to take the next turn. just a restful moving through a monday..
what about your monday? do you have a tendency to plunge in and not stop to see where the next step maybe? what kind of runner are you…wink:)
next we are going to talk about paint colors and projects…and i laugh…cause God always is up to something right?
it’s Friday!! what are you all doing this weekend? something super fun? or are you cleaning your whole house and running to the grocery store like me? ha! yep…that pretty much will sum up my weekend. I have to be at the SHOP earlier than usual this morning because Comcast is coming to hookup internet. I am super excited because now I can acsess orders from a computer instead of a phone…ya’ll I am getting old and it is hard to type on such little buttons when it is more than 5 words…just sayin!
I am off to dry my hair…it has been in a towel for over an hour #messyhairdontcare BUT I wanted to share with you all a quick little tour of our home. this was before all of us showed up on the scene with our stuff! as some of you know, if you follow my exodus home board on pinterest . we have been collecting ideas long before I ever knew about this place!
we have a couple of projects getting ready to start….like painting all of the rooms. you can’t tell it in the pictures but the paint reads a coral pink color. it isn’t anything we can’t live with but I have 3 color samples up on a wall and we are living with them for a bit to see which one we love!
we love the bon appetite so we are keeping that….NOT! just kidding…ha!
well – I will wrap it up for today. when miracles are happening. when good gifts are given you can bet that the enemy is prowling around and I have been struggling spiritually the last couple of days with anger & bitterness – wouldn’t you know it is the thing I struggle with the most. the area of the deepest hurt. right there…the finger pointed and prodding…pushing in on the wound. the enemy knows that doesn’t he?
but I am circling it all with truth words and I will leave you with one that I have been steeping myself in all week long. every. single. day
Isaiah 51..you can read all of it if you want to. I love it in the message version
likewise, I, GOD, will comfort Zion,
comfort ALL her mounds of RUINS.
I’ll TRANSFORM her dead ground into Eden,
her moonscape into the garden of GOD,
a place FILLED with exuberance and laughter,
thankful voices and melodic songs.
for more of the backstory on our exodus home click here and here
we took the weekend to finish cleaning up & clearing out the old house. moving the rest of the stuff into the shop. moving is exhuastingisn’t it? the chapter is closing and a grand one is beginning. i’m scared to death and excited all at the same time!
a silly sidenote: I just realized yesterday that our two new addresses both equal 10!
i don’t know the words to tell you how i am feeling these days so i will share two photos that “kinda” capture it.
i started a new pin board titled .me. it is sort of a “vision board” to help me get to know me…and what that “looks like”.
here is the first one – i am terrified of heights…and to swim in lakes so this kindacaptures that stomach in your throat..eyes closed
this is the other one…
THIS one…to me…captures just a little what it feels like when God’s love and grace POURS down on me like RAIN!
and the funny thing is i am seeing FIRE all around me! like in my quiet times with God…FIRE words
my friend speaks a song to me…FIRE
my sign is aries…FIRE
and in Hebrews 12:29 this morning… God Himself is FIRE
i don’t understand it…i just see it…pray it…journal it
it burns inside…lissa said it this way, ” i have FIRE in my belly” i have known fire in my bones for a long time. i never knew what to DO with it..or really what it was
now don’t get me wrong…i still don’t KNOW what it is or what to DO with it except
LISTEN to it!
the unexplainable thing is how His love rain fills the empty places and yet…leaves me wanting more
the fire is burning while the rain simultaneously leaves me screaming Your name abba!!
there are somany things going on in my life right now and honestly…some things fall through the cracks. some balls drop.
i am focusing on my relationship with God and the business and really just LISTENING and GOING where i feel He is leading
i can’t explain it to you…i don’t understand it
the exodus house
a SHOP that happened in 3 days…literally!! i have GOT to tell you the story! it is SO God!
i still laugh like sarah must have laughed thinking of it
but i DO know God is moving
He wants us to LISTEN
the promise of the promised land still stands..we can still enter into it but we must BELIEVE and not doubt
there is the letting go…the taking a RISK!
speaking of RISKS! i am so far out here girls….so FAR
several times a day myself asks myself ” WHAT in the world are you doing?!
but you know what? the material things can be nice but i am keenly aware that they are GIFTS and meant to be enjoyed
i am still learning to enjoy good gifts from my abba!!
but not worshipped or the means to an end
the BEST thing ever is getting to know God more…and deeper
and taking His hand and going on a GRAND ADVENTURE ..WITH Him
we will go on together girls…i don’t know where we will end up
it could all fall apart in the end…that is what the LIES tell me everyday but the TRUTH is
it could end up to be the most amazing comeback story…EVER!!
God has this one…i believe that! God is above ALL things…yes yes and yes!!
it’s better than sex! i know…GASP! the S word…i’m 45..i’m over that…ha!
my season of life and circumstances maybe different than yours. my kids are grown for the most part. i still have grace who is 14 but i don’t have little ones anymore so i have more freedom than i did when i was a mom of young ones
my fingers are cracked and bleeding from work.. stain and paint under my nails everyday
my hair is thrown up into a messy ponytail or bun
mu daily attire is paint clothes
not much time to go out on the town getting all dolled up
my laundry is in piles
boxes are still strewn all over the house waiting for be put away
I USED to believe God just came in and did the rescuing
now i KNOW it takes hard work on my part…PRAYING hard and long…for years sometimes. at the same time .. when it is GOD’s TIME…things are effortless. they just HAPPEN!
you see Him everywhere!! HIS PART…it blows my mind!!
the SHOP is in full force and is fast becoming our second home
the days are FULL
my heart is on FIRE
and i don’t know much or do many things well but the ONE thing i am hearing and responding too is to let God LIVE FREE within my LIFE
i am deconstructing false constructs (LIES) i have been taught
and rebuilding from the ground up!!
it really hit home when i was asked to fill out a page telling about ME and i couldn’t answer hardly a one of them!
i don’t know WHO i am…no wonder i was whatever to whoever!!
it is so much more than an exodus house..it is my exodus
i am making a commitment to share more often about that here..everyday or two. so many many of you have prayed through with me
and supported me with you words and i can’t thank you enough! i wish we could sit together over coffee and just talk
for hours! you have asked about a home tour and i promise i will be sharing all of that so very soon. just taking a little time to get
things in their place!!
we just added our first POSTER to the SHOP! ( link on the sidebar ) it is printed on a high quality archival paper and is SUPER nice
so i will leave you with these words for monday
fill in the blank with YOUR name!!
___________ LIVE COURAGEOUS
love LOVE love to each of you today!!!!
**i am having trouble with linking and images…just something weird going on with my computer…so i couldn’t link to lissa, the shop, my .me. pin board or the images…i will work on it:)
**i am sharing some tidbits below so you know that things are not perfect. bloggers don’t always share scenes behind their life and they shouldn’t have to. not everyone is called to do that. that is not their purpose)
sometimes miracles and messy go hand in hand
new refrigerator broke so for the last week we are using the garage as the refrigerator and the back deck for the freezer
(thankful for below zero temps huh?:)
the dishwasher didn’t work
2 out of the 3 toilets clogged
we had a snowmaggeddon with sub zero temps
moving and then having the shop at the old house so i had to travel back and forth the best i could in the bad weather
a business that is beginning to thrive
my daughter and the grand babies staying for a week
washer / dryer still at the other place
dealing with daily pain from my last surgery and this whole bag thing…ugh!!
truly is life changing
i have a third and final surgery coming up
and i stand looking in on my life
on one hand i am so miserable each day..physically but
on the other hand God has stood me back up on my feet in WONDER!
for the first time in my life i have no resources of my own
one of my strengths has always been that i “felt” i could work circles around everyone…i mean i really thought i was superwoman
i ran the whole house…did all of my children’s responsibilities even! i taught a woman’s sunday school class..all while having a newborn and homeschooling the other children
i seem to be able to see other people’s potential and would use my energy trying to make them have the drive to “be what i saw they could be” even though they didn’t care to be that
well now…the last oh…7-8 years developing a chronic disease that slowly ate up my intestines even while i pushed through all of that for years as if i wasn’t sick…landed me last april with my colon being totally removed and having a bag attached to my abdomen to go to the bathroom in
so lets say this
that that LIE in my right hand that i was believing and trusting in was that i had the strength to do many things without God
didn’t work anymore and that put me in a downward spiral for quite sometime
so when God blindsided me with this house and the news i will be sharing later this week please KNOW there is a BIG BACK STORY to all of THIS –
while i am FULL…i mean FULL of praise right now
and WONDER at all that God is doing…i don’t DARE take it for granted..i am fearful that i would and that would devastate me
having a vision beyond your resources is synonymous with dreaming big
and it may feel like your setting yourself up for failure, but your actually setting
god up for a miracle.
how God performs the miracle is His job
my job is drawing a circle around the God given dream and if i do my part
i might just find myself standing 3 feet in quail
now drawing circles around things is not some magic formula
i remember the first time i knew God spoke to me while i was reading the bible
i wrote the date beside the verse
it was august 12, 1996
i remember was in the “office” of our home on 213
sitting on the floor
it was then that i began to know God has a plan for me
and as the years went by i would jot down the date next to verse i felt God
bring to life for me
at times i thought i “knew” what God was going to do
but most of the time i tried to figure them out..or understand them which kept me from doing anything about them
friends:: it is in the stepping out and doing..it is in the trusting..it is ACTION..it is RISK
how many ways can one say it before we HEAR IT…by hearing it we DO SOMETHING!
that was 18 years ago!
in God’s timing things can take a long time
which drives our human selves crazy
so please please don’t read my story and compare it to your story
what i can share with you is that those 18 years were bitter years that stole so much of my life
and my children’s
there has been permanent damage done..breaches that may never be mended
our heart are like a piece of fine wood
fine sandpaper can smooth out a rough spot
but take a course grit sandpaper used with force altars the wood. scaring it. forever changing its shape
and that is kinda what’s happened to our hearts
wounded people hurt people and when they can’t take responsibility for their actions and work on changing themselves
it then turns to you..to me..to us
we have to take responsibility for our choices and begina grand adventure for yourself by taking God’s hand and letting Him lead you out
sorry this is so long:/ – this is what i wrote in my journal over the weekend and i believe this mindset is what we need to begin practicing to be a GIRL ON FIRE!! this shirt was inspired by my friend lissa..love ya girlie:)
this shirt is in SHOP! it will be available in other shirt styles soon
but listen…yesterday in my quiet time i read the whole book of hebrews and WOW! some of it was hard but here is what i
wrote in my journal that encouraged me and i hope encourages you… if you find yourself in a hard place today
let the spirit cup your heart with these words
leave finger painting and move on with the grand work of art ( i loved loved this!!)
move from salvation by self-help to trust toward God
there is SO MUCH MORE in God
let’s get on with it
stay on the course with committed faith
abraham stuck it out – kept trusting
God’s promise until he got everything God promised
grab the promised hope with both hands
and NEVER LET GO!
this new plan =covenant I’m making with israel isn’t going to
be written on paper,
isn’t going to be chiseled in stone; this time i’m writing out the plan IN THEM
IN ME..IN YOU!!
carvingit out on the lining of their hearts
i’ll be their God
they’ll be my people
we can LIVE all OUT FOR GOD
stick it out
because we are NOT QUITTERS! who lose out
on no, we’ll stay with it and survive, trusting, ALL the WAY!
shoot adrenaline in your SOULS today
God HIMSELF is FIRE…the God in the burning bush…oh man i LOVE this word picture
that my God…the One who loves me through all my junk..is on FIRE!
so let’s go outside where Jesus is
not trying to be privileged insiders the inside world is not our home
let’s light our hearts on fire by the God of FIRE and burn for Him so others can see and know God is real..He is personal
He longs to be a part of your story
he can take all the back story and begin to recycle it into something beautifully useful
there has been years of pain to get to this exodus home…and the news i will be sharing in the next few days
i am struggle with feeling guilty about but truly…i am overcoming that with trust. why?
because God is doing a work…not just this house but He is doing a work in hearts right now
it is His work! it is about God…not a house. it is about relationship. a relationship with God
to show us…HIM
that believing in HIM….letting go of self help…and casting ourselves all over Him
allows Him to do BIG things…He WANTS us to live out our dreams…HE PLANTED those DREAMS inside you
we have gotten waaaay to man made in our faith
it is time to set your world on FIRE and begin
together with God our GRAND WORD of ART
because what i am tasting …now…of God i want MORE of..not the things…HIM
and hebrews tells me…as well as every other book in the bible that there is so much MORE of God
that we will never get full!! it satisfies like nothing else i have ever tasted
the more i step out in trust the MORE LOVED i feel
the MORE SEEN i feel
i am now choosing to build my life on trust when hard things come understanding that it is these hard things
that are teaching me to be able to run farther and faster
that God has a story to tell
no one else has my story and no one else has YOUR story
lets together be the adventurous pioneers of our time so the next generation can look back and say they never quit!
they believed God
and let’s by our faith…our running the race and not quitting
set others FREE to to do the same
imagine the landscape of america if this kinda of fire was burning brightly
instead of telling with our mouths what we stand against
let’s start showing by how we LIVE…how BIG GOD is…and let GOD do the work
after all HE is the spirit that moves hearts
not ranting and raving and pointing fingers
one last thought
there is NO END to the parameters of your life when we choose to LIVE BRAVE
i will be sharing this key in the photo above and its meaning later this week.. praying your heart is stirred
to let go of all that is holding you down and look to the ONLY ONE who will lead you out if you will be strong
and courageous and TRUST
the following words were on january 31 daily bible reading. i couldn’t BELIEVE it!! what?? this is what it said..i underlined them and wrote them in my journal as circle prayers..
you must remember this day forever each year you will celebrate it as a special festival to the LORD – exodus 12:14
this night had been reserved by the LORD to bring out His people from the land of egypt =slavery – exodus 112:42
this day will be the anniversary of your exodus – exodus 13:4
i hadn’t got one foot in the inside the promised land and i came face to face with some giants…
and i can’t wait to spill more of my story
i wanted to turn tail and run…
there is nothing to turn up the volumne in your life than to move and have your daughter and husband and the four grand kids come…simultaneously
all while having a winter storm warning
while the snow maybe falling outside..inside we are laughing so hard our sides hurt watching the grand babies dance in the kitchen to katy perry’s new song .. don’t judge (i wink)
i am LOVING having my hair “did”
it is CRAY i tell ya!!
i can’t WAIT to tell you what we have planned for the house
oh! be sure to check out my adventurous partner in her simple new style
my daughter and husband and the four kiddos leave thursday morning so i am closing the computer for the night and snuggling into bed with reed. it is his turn to sleep with grandma