Category Archives: My Story

You mean I’m not superwoman?

we weave the lessons into the fabric of our daily moments until they become a part of us

Sarah Ban Breathnach

He will not only deliver you; but in doing so, He will give you a lesson that you will never forget, and to which, in many a psalm and song, in after days, you will revert.  You will never be able to thank God enough for having done just as He has.

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it rent me sore…my cape that fell hard that day. I was born complicated and in this complication I learned ways in which I strangled the voice of purpose God knitted me so beautifully with.  He knew the plans He had for me but the problem was- no one else did. Not even me. so with the wounds came the lies stitched tight.

years of being driven came out of those tight stitched lies … the “not enough” stitch. This name tag I own because it was my truth . not THE truth.  I lived out of I’m complicated the majority of the time.  Subsequently, I lived with the consequences of this name tag.  The worthlessness I felt..I can’t do or be enough to please anyone…even God.  It drives me to do.. and do.. and do.

I’m tired.  I want to quit.  Those were my closest friends.

If one is never enough what ever in the world could make one enough?  the soul wears out in the doing.

When Jesus had tasted it, he said, “It is finished!” Then he bowed his head and released his spirit.  John 19:30

And all who are recipients of that salvation are granted everything pertaining to life and godliness through the true knowledge of Christ (2 Pet. 1:3)

Christ was enough..He was the perfect sacrifice.  Christ fulfilled ALL of the law. so when God sees me  He sees Christ and He is perfect.  Christ is ENOUGH therefore I am enough.  I don’t have to fulfill ANY law!!  I’ve been given everything I need.  It is all there for me to excavate to live a whole-hearted life of freedom.  Believe me – I am digging wrapped in the robe of Christ.

A couple of weeks ago a Dr. said to me ” your complicated” and that which I thought I’d buried erupted through an open wound.   Those two words. why now?  the fabric of my soul begin to pull…Father what?  am I complicated?  it took me right back to eyes staring at me with disgust and disappointment..I was a child.  Another wound..another lie.  and maybe I was.  to complicated.  Frantic – I looked around for something to stop the blood.  I always look to myself first and out of nowhere I felt the hard pressure of the words with breath

you are not an orphan child .. your my daughter

then silence……….long silence

then deep pressure saying you are enough..quit doing and the seeping slowed. WORD was seeping IN.

Nothing is to hard for me Tiffini

for you see -I’ve loved you from before time and I knitted you together just the way I wanted you and all of this as He spread His hands far and wide so far in fact- I couldn’t even see..is for all of the land that I am going to give you..and your children and your children’s children.  For you see – I have a Big Story…and you have just a part.  and just like I told you in October it is My song that I gave you and in your fear you think it is yours…tell My story.

your story .. will forever remain incomplete…until you let me do what only I can do with your hurt…Let Me perfect that which concerns you.

Beth Moore – Breaking Free

I created you to be a word woman.  You can run and keep tying that cape trying and be something different .. to fit in..but you won’t.  In your heart you know this.  Your spirit tells you these are truth words.  It is up to you what to do with them.

the world doesn’t need anymore superwomen…the world needs word women

The dark horse has become the symbol of the ordinary person

who comes out a winner due to the grace of God.

But most importantly, the dark horse is the image of real Christianity…righteousness amidst human flaws.

The church is inundated with white horses.  Flawless, successful, inaccessible leaders who only drive the average Christian

deeper into frustration, guilt and failure.

If we are to learn to follow Christ, it will be the dark horses, not the white ones, that will show us the way.

Keith Miller-

 

God is knitting the fabric of our lives…round the world…women gathered together…word women…and it is something to celebrate – new garments made in love..knitted in love, something women have always done.

the fire is warm and women are waiting.  now is the time.  bare your heart and let go of the pain that so easily takes you captive and let Him begin to perfect that which concerns you.  Will you?  will I?

the cape is buried for good what about yours ?  there is a place right beside me…are you ready for more Word women?

xo..

 

 

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Emily @ Chatting at the Sky post…making decisions

We are going to Omaha, NE today for Grace’s first dance competition!  Praying all of your weekends are filled with gratefulness. love. joy and each other.  See you on Dear Monday…xo  My heart has been filled by your words of encouragement to Why do you blog?  You encourage me…every single one of you.

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Dear monday: why do you blog?

 

Why do you blog?  I know…deep question right?  One that I am really digging deep to answer.  Asking your help at the end…

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Here are TWO questions I am asking.

Why did I start blogging

I started this last October to just start writing my heart about the changes that God  was doing in my life.  Laying down the heart words on paper.  I have always journaled but the problem is when I went back to read the journals…10 years later I am still in many of the same situations. Not much change.  That is a big problem.  for me.  I am walking the middle right now waiting for direction on which way to go … right or left.

Warning: Vulnerable Confession!

I have NO background in writing, crafting, design, photography anything. I didn’t even finish high school.  I was married at 16 and had my first three children by the time I was 22. I did later go back to get my GED.  That being said – I’ve been a stay at home mom since I was 16.  So 26 years.  I am blogging for ME first…to sort myself out…HA!   I would love to write some kind of book.    I have a few ideas.  I will need an editor as you all know I don’t know the grammer rules etc.  I just write how I talk….lol?  works for me but not so much for a book:)

It has been 5 months?  now what?  what is my niche?  I really want to know!

I have no idea. I know – not a good answer but an honest one.  I am definitely a beauty hunter this I know.  My heart is deep and complicated.  I love to write the heart dialogue down and I look for God to answer them.  I am wanting to find out who I am, my purpose and how to live securely and …….I have a heart for women who’s hearts are hemorrhaging, women in abusive relationships and are locked in prisons of fear and do not know how and/or do not have the tools and support to live life fully. How to take care of themselves and their children. How to find healing for the lies that were laid down with the wounds.

I do enjoy decorating, cooking and all of the things that encompass being a woman.  Just not sure what the blog should be about.  Maybe it can be all these things… I just don’t know.

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this is what has been on my heart for my blog…His blog really.  I really do pray very much about this blog and the direction He wants me to take it.  He initiated this and I am want to follow hard after it.  I think of you all often as I write.  Three of my five children are grown.  The younger two are 16 & 11 and I feel it is time.  This last 10-11 years have been tumultuous to say the least. Lots of changes.  If I’m going to write a different future I am going to have to get off the fence and go right or left.  I don’t want to look back in 10 more years and STILL see the same thing.  It is like deep dreams that I have buried and or never believed inare now saying ” It is time” .

 

What is your niche? do you know?  how did you know?

Why do you blog? Honestly?

I would love ANY constructive criticism on what you all may see as my niche.  What I might do away with and what I should do more of.  I would love very much to hear your words.

Thinking your Monday is the first day of a brand new dream

xo


Linking up to Jen @ Finding Heaven this Tuesday. . . hoping you can stop by:)

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How to get motivated to simplify

 

community… that’s how

I am going to join Simple Mom for this project.  I think it may help us in the process of moving ( yes, I’m moving – another post ) to organize and simplify.  I have written on it here and here.

For five weeks, we’ll work together and tackle different areas of our homes. Be encouraged and inspired, knowing that there are other families around the world rolling up their sleeves and working alongside you!

Begins March 7!

project simplify

Would you like to join me?  Just click on the graphic and it will take you to all the information you need. This is a big link up but it would be kinda fun to share our own experiences with our ” smaller ” group as well?  Let me know:)

Plus – it is just THAT time of year: Spring Cleaning

I also had this sweet little post delivered to my email and in case  you haven’t seen them yet I wanted to share.

I know some of you are writers and journal and would appreciate this.  You might just have to buy one of these lovelies:)  Why don’t you go on over and meet Katie @ Gadanke.

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Happy almost weekend…oh also – I applied to go through volunteer training @ a domestic violence safe home that our community has.  I looked at this last summer and just kind of shelved it.  Well – I got another email and I applied.  We’ll see.

 

xo

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bloom

Bloom where you’re planted

Mary Engelbreit

we’ve all quipped “bloom where your planted”… but am I?  blooming I mean.

have I broken the pot and loosened the soil and dug a hole and planted myself here?

In my present tense

kristilynnmcd:  theoreticalknitting:  I really want to make a blanket soon.  I’m also wanting to make a blanket pretty badly.

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I am always striving – straining – perfecting and controlling every area of my life…uprooting my souls

shriveling roots making it harder to take root in soil anymore?

I think I am bloominglately..choosing to spend time gently patting the soil around these old roots

…and

I love cowboy boots and lately I am having an

apron fetish…wonder if I could sew one?

Don’t forget to come back tomorrow to share words with Brooke McGlothlin!

connecting hearts & words with the SDG girls and Jen at Finding Heaven…what do you have to say?

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and Michelle @ Graceful

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Dear Monday…changes

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I am a busy little bee lately…LOTS of answers

some yes some no’s…all gifts

while busyness is all around my heart..my spirit is S   L   O   W moving right now.

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I feel behind on visiting you all – behind on one of my best friends life – behind on New Day – behind

on laundry and housework.  Just plain ole behind.  And you know what?  I’m going with it because

when we are at that place with God and there has been prayers going up wrapped in gratitude and

we are in that place of forbearancewe must wait so God can do His work KNOWING He is making

all the necessary preparations.


I have been praying sweat over something that I can’t wait to share with you all…it is coming!

Oh..and don’t you just love the boots, flowers and the chair in that picture?  I can just dream myself right

into that little office can’t you?:)


also – Brooke McGlothlin will be with us this Wednesday..so be sure to come check out her words and

her new ebook  Warrior Prayers…praying the Word for boys.  It is only 5.97.

Many changes coming my way that I can’t wait to share with all of you.

Are you noticing any changes in your heart lately?  Maybe share a way you are able to slow down and enjoy life knowing God is making a way?

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