Category Archives: My Story

what i would say to the little girl in me…

i wrote some of my heart out on wood…you know in the bible when it says He saves our tears in a bottle?
this is what i hear God say when he has cupped my face so many times…He drowns out the lies i hear with truth
He believes in me..He comforts me like no one else can…this is what He is telling the 9 year old little girl when her world
has broken into a million pieces and in her eyes her daddy would be there helping her pick up the pieces but so often that is not the
case for little girls…or boys
but our real Father…He bends down…our very own daddy – with His eyes sparkling with joy seeing us as we really are consumed with love He says…

 

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:i love my mom in this shirt:

you were born to blaze new trails
to pioneer great adventures
to reclaim new territories – take daring risks
to tell your one.of.a.kind story and
if necessary start a new page
use your story to CREATE a new future – don’t live in the past
never ever quit and when you fall hard…get up harder YOU are God-strong
when you cross over into new land and face unknown giants always remember

you are never alone- the God – of – the – Angel – Armies goes before you
you were born  a warrior – wounded scarred and battle-weary but SAVED by no strings attached GRACE
fight hard for your story – you are worth fighting for
you are ENOUGH.  you are strong and courageous
heaven is singing songs over you every.single.day
i know you will have BIG faith

slavery to anything is surviving
instead..choose to live FREE let faith not fear be your compass
TRUTH not lies be your guide
my prayer for you for all eternity is that God’s word – like blood -
pumps through your veins
that you crave His LOVE like the oxygen you breathe
you are set-apart..watch with eyes wide open for God do amazing things around you

remember to give God room to PROVE Himself FAITHFUL
God is with you ALWAYS-
make your mark by DREAMing BIG..because you never know that
you were born for such a time as this…write your HIStory…xo

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sometimes i sense a fire at my heels and the need to run….
i an sense it coming in my bones
the need for them to know

i wrote these words first to the little girl in me and then for all the little girls and boys who are lost…who have no voice
who feel abandoned…who are in hopeless situations

so they will know.  so someone will tell them…believe these words for them
i write them to my children…my grandchildren
because one day we may not live in a country where we are so free
a day doesn’t go by that i don’t feel grateful for all i have…all we have as a country
but i believe it isn’t always going to be this way

and i believe there is a call going out to prepare..we are not to live by fear
we are to be on the front lines

and i wonder have i taught my children … not by my words but by how i live..what i stand for
it’s time

i hope to have this sign ready before i leave for Hope Spoken thursday!!!!

more on that soon and we still have a big surprise i am DYING
to share with you but i think it will have to wait until after i get back…but it is worth the wait…she is worth the wait…and i get to squeeze her neck in less than a week…..eeeekkkkk!!!!

xo

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surgery scheduled & the winner of the fierce sign

honestly?  i have been wearing many hats lately.  running a business..growing it..is lots and lots of hard work
i am learning it is blood sweat and tears on my part and then letting God do His part
which means the down time i do have is usually spent answering etsy convo’s..planning the next days workload and putting something in my mouth to eat…cleaning house .. oh and i do find time to eat Mexican with my mom and girls!!  i love Mexican food!!

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it leaves little time to peruse my favorite blogs and leave comments
answering back comments on my own blog
all of which i miss terribly!!

but you know–it is part of growth.  it is a season.  for me..i know i cannot do everything- we aren’t meant to.
i can only do so many things and do them well so some things have to be set aside for a time.  and i am learning not to feel false guilt
or take on pressure that isn’t mine to take…you know?

and that is ok!

and honestly… i passionately love what i am doing and where i am at right now

i feel like i have been given a second chance in life..i am feeling better and stronger than i have felt in years
it has been a year april 28 since i had major surgery having my colon removed and a colostomy bag.  since then, i had another surgery to create a new pouch that takes the place of my rectum made out of my small intestine ( crazy right ) and then april 21 i will have the last and final surgery where they will hook it up and remove the bag.  while i am beyond grateful for this process, having a bag has been…life-alteringly HARD!!  and while i am super duper excited to not have a bag i am aware there will be some months of healing and adjusting to the new way of doing things.  it will be hard.  but I AM READY:)

i will never be “normal” again.  there will be things i won’t be able to eat.  there are some issues that pop up with jpouch’s and energy levels always seem to be an issue and dehydrating but being on this side of severe ulcerative colitis and having such a poor quality of life i will take this anyday!!

God has been my rock..my strength.  He chose me for my weakness…it has been through these hard places that i am willing to be teachable, by His grace, to be taken deeper into trusting Him

giving Him a real chance to prove Himself to me

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i am trying to learn everything i can from this experience and one thing i have been practicing is LIVING BRAVE!
to STOP DOING WHAT ISN’T WORKING..and figuring out why i keep going back

creating a new future – living day-tight as mark batterson says:)

nikki and i have so many things coming up–i have some fun news that i will share soon too:)

all of this being said
PLEASE know i think of you all often.  i do!  it is the way i am made.  i know those of you who pray with me..and for me and encourage me are part of the reason i am this far in the journey.  i am SO looking forward to the next part of the adventure–and i think it really will be an adventure!!

if i am to tell my story…i have to be at that place to help others get out…so this season of my life is part of that story
it is part of what i am to teach but i have to “live” it first…does that make sense?

ok…now for the winner!

we had 313 comments and random number generator choose 105

Ashley – ashmcferrin on ig –

i asked ONE thing you want to do this summer and Ashley said, ” my kids have been begging to go fishing for the first time…
so this summer i want to go fishing!….have fun Ashley..fishing is one of summers highlights:)…xo

whoo hoo girlie!!  email me at tiffkilgore@live.com with your address and it is boxed and ready to come home:)

xo

 

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this is worth fighting for & a winner

i needed to be encouraged…and i thought just maybe YOU did too

maybe your THIS is cancer, divorce, rejection, discouragement, depression, loneliness, or something so terrible it shouts but remains unnamed?  whatever is pounding loudly in your mind, your body, your soul, let me…let US be YOUR balcony person today..yes?

let me hug you with my words.  let me wallpaper your soul to mine.  let me encourage you to sing God’s song, and let me remind you that the song in YOU is His idea

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hear me when i say the apostle paul did not lie when he wrote, ” long ago, even before He made the world, God CHOSE .. US! me and you..to be His very own

i’m leaning way, way over your balcony railing; i’m waving my coat above my head, and i’m yelling above the frightening noises of your world, ” i love you!  i believe in you and your abilities!  you can do it!  keep at it!  keep on!!  He’s here beside me..our Abba..and He’s beaming with delight in YOU!  yes, that’s right, He’s here, and He’s not sitting down

YOU are His child, He is your father.  His coat is off too, and we are both in your balcony cheering YOU on together!!
–excerpt from balcony people by joyce heatherley

wasn’t that good?  i want to that kind of  balcony person.  and i need balcony people
i have struggled this week with something and through a song God reminded me that i am standing with an army

that i am not alone
that i just have to look around…and look up
there really are people in my balcony..cheering me on and up
rooting for me

and friend…look around…look up
i’m waving my hoodie for you!!  with tears streaming down my face
i am cheering you on…YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT

…xoxo

THIS is Worth Fighting For T is in the SHOP

when nikki & i saw these words we knew we had to create a tshirt
all of the items in the shop are inspired and pulled from our life

here is part of our mission statement i felt led to write one night
i want to make it into a sign for the shop–God’s shop
it is a joy and a gift to do what we do and we are humbled..truly
at your support of our business but more than that..of our hearts
in the words of ann voscamp
all is grace

2014 mission

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thank you for sharing your adventures with us
it was awesome to read each one!!

the winner of the circle maker book  is kahra!!  number 21!  email me at tiffkilgore@live.com with your address and i will have it mailed right out to you
ps..i wish i could send you tickets to paris too…don’t quit your daydream…layla @letteredcottage

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our paint color..thrifted shutters..and a giveaway

its kinda fun…just us girls
that is how we roll most days

so when the weatherman said there was a winter storm coming
instead of dashing off to target with everyone else scooping up all the bread and milk

we went to brass armadillo to see if there were any fun architectural pieces for the home!

we didn’t walk away empty handed
we found a pair of really awesome weathered shutters for either side of our kitchen window

one side was mostly green

the other was the grey that we really squealed over!!..layla shared about this stuff that you can paint over all the chippy to
keep it from flaking off so we ordered some through amazon

Non-yellowing sealer made to use on top of white or chipping paint

above photo from lettered cottage:)

i am really wanting to keep the walls and main things really neutral and then add color in changeable places
cause i am prone to change…

as far as the main paint color
it chose us
we painted several squares of each color

glass of milk – martha stewart
swiss coffee – benjamin moore
classic grey – benjamin moore

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in the kitchen, living room and all three girls bedrooms

then we just lived with it for a couple of weeks.  letting the light from sunrise to sunset fall on it
the house chose the color really..

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classic grey won out much to my delight

we are loving how the light from the big windows washes the whole house with a happy glow!

i love coming home now..and that my friends is what paint color is all about…it is a cheap albeit laborious antidepressant!

now for my latest favorite read & a giveaway

i can’t tell you how much i loved the circle maker..so much so that i want to share one with YOU!!
if you’ve already read it .. enter anyway and give it to someone.  it could be a life changer for someone..or YOU:)

all you have to do to enter is:

if you could run away tomorrow on ANY ADVENTURE…where would you go?

leave it in the comments below and we will announce the winner in the next post!

easy peasy…:)

i want to leave you with rodney “gypsy” smith words from the book that wouldn’t leave me..and i pray they won’t leave you either
that they will MOVE us to draw a circle around our ourselves…

gypsy’s secret was revealed to a delegation of revival seekers, who asked him how God could use
them, just as He was using gypsy.  without hesitation, gypsy said, 
“go home.  lock yourself in your room.  kneel down in the middle of the floor, and with a piece of chalk
draw a circle around yourself.  
there on your knees, pray fervently and brokenly that God would start a revival 
within that chalk circle

oh abba…burn in our hearts…set us on fire from deep within to be your followers from this day forward
no longer religious rule followers…
raise up original jesus followers such as have never been seen before in our country…

:Source List:

Wall Color : Classic Gray by Benjamin Moore
Trim Color : Simply White by Benjamin Moore
Chairs : Restoration Hardware
Pillow : Ikea
Shutters : Local Antique Store

 

 

 

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keep your proper distance daughter

its monday – is that a good thing?  not sure yet:)

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we got a lot accomplished this weekend like making our menu and shopping for it
laundry…kinda
picked another color to try on our walls
we cleaned a lot
we purchased some things to make a few really awesome projects…hoping so anyway…:)

ate with family…always FUN:)  food…i love food

what did you do?

here is my dilemma today: i am a hard core runner!
i have some peter in me…i will not deny you jesus….i get ya peter…i do!!

not the kind that pounds the pavement however…although pavement has come into play
i am a runner aheader : the runner that when things are moving forward at an alarming rate i go just keep going without stopping to ask for directions
which has been known to find me hurled headlong INTO the pavement..only to come up bruised and bloody…ick!

nowadays — whether i really am wiser or i am just 45…you be the judge
i am more comfortable with acknowledging that while these tendencies can and are be used for awesome things
many time they have gotten me ahead of God

so this morning when i was aroused from my fitful sleep at 3:30 am…i thought i might as well grab a cup of coffee
and have a conversation with my abba

i told you here that i had been steeping in these verses ( yes, instead of running all over in the bible like i can do….this must be a tendency of mine…ha)

so i went to those verses AND read the rest of colossians…which btw i am really identifying with.  i think i might begin to memorize it…anyway

after all of that…writing in my journal things that were impressed on my heart – i turned to joshua and there i read

joshua was up early and on his way from shittim with all the people of israel with him.  he arrived at he jordan and camped before crossing over.  after three days, leaders went through the camp and gave out orders to the people: “when you see the covenant-chest of God, your God, carried by the levitical priests, start moving.  follow it.  make sure you keep a proper distance between you and it, about half a mile–be sure now to keep your distance!-and you’ll clearly see the route to take.  TIFFINI YOU have NEVER been this way before!! — joshua 3:1-4

ok..was that something i need to listen to?  to DO something with…well i think so!!

there is lots of action words here FOLLOW..start MOVING…i have been listening and moving–following when i feel God showing me too…but the reminder here..for me anyways

is to follow far enough behind God to be able to see which way He is showing me to go
REMEMBER - i have NEVER been this way before.  this is all new territory for me and i still feel like this picture!!

isn’t that awesome?  abba knows this about me and He knows i want to grow in this area
learn HOW to bridle this FIRE…does that make sense?  ok…hope so:)

it’s monday..yep and today i am going to practice rest.  not a static thing..i see it as a steady rhythm–moving through my busy day but instead of having my eyes to the grindstone i want to be focused upward and outward…ALERT to where abba is working..where i might need to take the next turn. just a restful moving through a monday..

what about your monday?  do you have a tendency to plunge in and not stop to see where the next step maybe?
what kind of runner are you…wink:)

next we are going to talk about paint colors and projects…and i laugh…cause God always is up to something right?

 

 

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