i have held a dream in my heart since i was a little girl watching my grandpa write on yellow legal notepads.
sneaking into his closet deciphering his handwriting amongst a stack of notepads as almost as big as i was
i have wanted to write. to tell a story.
this writing hangs over me like a dark cloud. i still can’t pinpoint what “it is” exactly or what it will look like even
years flew by and i spent well over a decade in the wilderness. a wasteland i now believe created to translate what i knew in my head but
didn’t know “how-to” in my life.
maybe for me to build trust and endurance?
occasionally, i could hear God on the sidelines saying, “all of this is for a purpose”
“I am doing something new that you wouldn’t believe even if i told you”
but the pain was numbing and i couldn’t receive anymore than i could give
i was broken in my mess and i needed to be restored before i could help others
i remember reading
that you cannot teach what you do not know
when i received the email from jeanne ( i love this friend so much )
i ran for the comfort of
i can’t speak
i will feel and look stupid
i won’t make sense
blah blah blah…
you can read her heart behind the study HERE
fears keep us safe but they also keep us from doing what we were born to do
long story short i said yes
and felt terrified ever since
i may chicken out…(wink)
but i know it is a God gift
and if i said no it would be selfish because it doesn’t only depend on me
God promises says to me
Don’t be afraid, for the I will go before you and will be with you; I will not fail nor forsake you.”
i am learning that each step of the journey i am given the choice to step through invisible walls of fears and leave what is comfortable
i feel like i have lived most of my life under water. i could see light but i was dying a slow death
my obstacles were my deepest fears
my hands were raw and bleeding from trying to hang onto the rope of my life the way i saw it
the fairytale i so desperately tried to create
was dying and i felt i was dying right along with it
maybe i was…
but God had a whole different fairy-tale He was preparing me for
i didn’t know it but God did, that my knight in shining armor was not my husband or any man for that matter
it was a love-story between Him & i
and i can’t wait to share a little piece of my story with you
YOU and i have to live the life we were born to live…
-the sound of music
This January 6, 2015 join 21 women for an 8 week study all about finding your true identity in Christ.
Each week you will hear unfolding stories from the women in this study.
We will be sharing truths about who the Lord says we are and our personal journeys to accepting and living out these truths.
** All of the details are on the page and you are all set for the study to begin on January 6, 2015
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