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finding beauty in muddy waters

mom didn’t let “this” define her…or us  THAT is what i want to spend the rest of my life building.  THIS is what i want my children to remember me for

if she can..i can

if God brought her through the fire and flood He can bring me through 

and just maybe i am that Gideon for my family..but i won’t lie.  it is a fight.  a fight for our life.  we really do have an enemy that wants to kill steal and destroy
all the dreams and God stories.  to be in this kind of battle you are in the front lines.  it is a running the race..with the mind set to FINISH the race.

i see the landscape of our family story much like the aftermath of the moviethe impossible...i stare out over the heartbreak and devastation of our family with pieces of my heart swirling in the muddy waters and i watch as it is carried farther and farther down where squinting no longer makes clear

not to be a downer but sometimes i feel we need to pull our heads out of the sand and realize that so many many people are hurting in all sorts of ways.  ways
that are not always seen on the outside.  they have no where to where for healing and have no hope.  THAT was my main thought on this post.  compassion.  not just in other countries.  the ache..the wound is of a different kind.  i know my family isn’t the only family with plastered smiles labeled the perfect family all the while the closed doors scream silently and the nobody will ever believe us taunts one to the brink.

i know if i am going through this crazy... (most cannot be shared here due to my children and it is our family..not the place)  we will have to wait for the book..ha!
but my heart just burns for THIS…how people wake up with crazy for lack of a better word and what can we do within our own area of influence. so this is why i write…will write my story.  as i go.  because somebody somewhere has given up hope..knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt they are the only ones.  if that is are dead wrong.  it is a LIE

my shoulders heave a sigh and i suck in a breath as if that will give me strength from some unknown place and i turn around ready to face the day.  still feeling a little worse for the wear.  the scars still fresh with a twinge i will run my hand over them as if needing reassurance they are still there.  IT is still there.  the bag that has in so many ways changed my life.  i am beginning to connect the sacred.  months before staring out at the river carrying my “life” i would have crumbled into a heap of sobbing messiness.

you see the river flows on with our debris whether we want it to or not.

my to do list is still my to do list sick or not.  my plate is still full until i take things off of it..or life does.  either way we all have a plate to fill and it is up to us what we put on it.
there is also a sneaky plate filler that we don’t often think about and that is other people.  they can put things on our plate without our permission.  if we are married and our partner commits
a crime we might have to put their consequences on our plate.  a child who gets into trouble can put some consequences on plate…you get my drift?

if your anything like me i have had trouble differentiating what is my responsibility and what is everyone else’s.  i raised my kids thinking that most of what they were responsible for was mine
that is what i thought love was.  that is what i was taught.  it is all i knew.

but i am not going there today.  TODAY is the beginning of a new week.  ( this post was meant for monday…ha!) a week that i can pick up a pen and write a whole new chapter in my life.
i can turn around from that river of floating debris called my life and i can put the pen and the blank piece of paper down.  sit there with my hands open
and head turned toward the heavens and empty me from me.  this week the floating debris..the pieces of my heart..the years taken and destroyed i can release those and admit
my responsibility in whatever comes to mind because believe me … there is a lot i could have done differently and chose not to for many reasons.

where i find myself right now really is to much for me.  for myself.  i am weak and i DO need God’s strength to put one foot in front of the other
while i know there are many in blog land who’s worries are what color of paint they will paint or counter tops etc. i wish that were the stage i were at but it isn’t and i say that full of grace to everyone else and me
someday maybe
but this leg of the journey is bringing all my gunk to the surface to be dealt with.  whatever the root that is keeping me from really moving forward…for God to RESTORE what daddy God:)  has promised me He would restore all that was lost.  I have to be able to SEE to RECEIVE….does that make sense?  i can’t continue to sabotage myself.

and in all this bloggy home decor documenting your life on social media crazed life we all live in…i want..i am find a happy medium for me. one in which i have time to work and time to really enjoy the small sacred things in my life.

the river carries many things.  some are mine and some are not…and some i am not sure who’s they are yet.
i know i cannot deal with all of mine yet.  i CAN work on one or two things though.  so for now some things will just have to float on for awhile.

this week i am going back to my 5 things…my PLAN to WORK.  i think this summer is a perfect time to tackle some of these things so that when the crisp fall air
come trickling in with it some peace for my heart will come with it as well.

closing the shop and rearranging it to work for me has been a HUGE burden lifter.  It will RE-OPEN June 28 with 20 spots for orders.  i think i am really really going to like it.  it is going to give me time to create other things to sale
to be more orderly and on time.  we still have a butt load of signs to be caught up but that is ok.  i take it one day at a time and do what i can do within each day and you know what?
that is ALL i can do.  period:)  and i smile.

in case you missed it here is my plan to work for the summer of 2013

  1. daily read truth – His words – spend time talking everything over with me
  2. write your story each it..capture it in photos
  3. keep building signs and shop
  4. begin to recover the house.  remember the re-booting.  keep going.  simplify
  5. ENJOY the summer with my FAMILY
  6. begin an exercise routine again.  start small just start

now that we have established the big picture lets begin to fill in each piece of the puzzle.  kinda like they teach us in Precept class..:)  so for the rest of the weeks i will share pieces of my life
my story as i write it.  we may have to refer back to the big picture from time to time as it is the frame holding our story together but oh what fun to dream His dreams…to start fresh! after all i do have a pencil” and a blank piece of paper… about you?  do you have your blank piece of paper and pencil in hand?  i sure hope so…

we have all sorts of fun things happening that we will be sure to share with you:) umkay?  cause even in the muddy waters one can find BEAUTY

oh  our  CURTAINS ARE FOR SALE IN THE SHOP!  click here:)

all the Impossible movie images came from here





shop closing for alterations..the deets


gracefully letting go:

most of you know how the last few months have been hard.  i am grieving..yes i guess i am..over losing my colon and having to learn a whole new way of living.
6 weeks ago yesterday
some of you know my daughter & son in law and my 4 grand babies have been living with us for the last month before moving to Florida
they moved in almost the day i came home from the was a busy time..with a capital B
they left yesterday and it is still so sad.
dakota graduated from high school
nikki had just launched her t shirts company MOXIE right before i went in for surgery
for weeks leading up to the surgery i was SICK..but kept hind sight i shouldn’t have
i know you all know what i am saying…

  we are so blessed by all of you.  we are humbled that you let us create for you
i wake up most days and can’t even believe how much we have grown.  we love it with a capital L.  lots of capitals today
i have been going back and forth over what to do with the shop
i kept it open when i should have closed it.  6 weeks after major surgery most people are at home and not work
my personality carries that weight of all the orders sitting there..getting later and later
not good.  letting go of this way of doing things is scary and hard but i believe best.
( those of you with orders know i am working as fast as this body can to get them to have been so gracious)

there are new doors opening and i want to be able to walk through them without the burden
of 75 orders you know?

this surgery will give me back my life.  my business.  God’s business
but i have to get to a place that the business is not controlling me
i need to be controlling it
i don’t want to lose my JOY in using the gift God has given us
alterations are necessary in real life aren’t they?

so taking a cue from my friend becky i am making some changes in the way our shop runs

we are going to close the shop this friday june 7 and re-open june 28

here are the new alterations

  • we will be open the last 10 days of every month.  i will remind everyone through posts & IG
  • if you follow us on insatgram we will be releasing our new signs that are ready to ship
  • we will have 20 spots each month for custom signs..or any sign.  it will be first come first serve
  • we will release all our new signs on instagram.  they will be ready to ship.
  • from there the new releases will go into the shop and you will be able to order them when the shop re-opens.

here’s why

this is what matters in the end:

  • i have so many projects around my own home that i want to tackle.
  • my house is a mess and i want to finish re-booting.  i want to LOVE my home again!
  • we have so many new signs we want to make and once caught up we will have time to make them
  • i want to enjoy a simple summer.  i don’t want a bazillion orders hanging over my head and always stressed about it

i KNOW you all will understand
i SPEND WAY to much time trying to DO so many things.  the fight or flight feelings…i FIGHT everyday.  i am really working on a way that is simple and one that works for ME.
will you JOIN me…what is working for you?  do you feel that pressure to fight or flight?  how can we whittle down this crazy life and just simple enjoy it more?
how can we go back to the old days..make them work within this technology crazed lifestyle…i have some ideas that i will be sharing soon.

  • remember these curtains?  be watching friday they will be up for sale!  i have two pairs


sometimes there is only one answer…
a leap of faith

our prototype – we are changing the frame to a “driftwood gray”.  we shared this last week on INSTAGRAM and got some wonderful ideas for wording on it.
we chose the words

” i will NOT leave you as ORPHANS

it is so applicable to all of us.  truly we are ALL orphans until we are adopted into God’s family watching for this in the shop.  it will be a sign you can choose from to have made

love you all…praying a wednesday just FULL of sacred moments…but we have to look for them don’t we?


a box of chocolates or a box of darkness?

Mary Oliver


mary oliver  hit the nail on the head didn’t she?  really she put in her own words that which God has said from the beginning.
sarah young always has her hand on God’s heart and this is no exception.

we endure can be put to good use by allowing it to train us in trusting God.  it is divine reversal.  fear no evil, for I can bring
good out of every situation you will ever encounter… joesph took this to the bank and so can we!

it is slow here friends.  some moments i am really depressed or discouraged with this bag.  the fact that i have my intestines coming out of my body
i feel ugly most of the time.  i feel as if i will never be back to normal..then i think..”what is normal?  i haven’t felt normal for
years!”  and the pendulum swings the other way and i a blubbering to God that i am SO thankful for this surgery.  i think of my those in my family who
have cancer .. i mean.. come on it doesn’t take a millisecond to think of tragic things.  so YES it can be worse.
i know though that i have to feel the emotions..go through the process.  i am trying to not beat myself up for the down times.
they DO pass.

today this is my LESSON : dark times are gifts..we may have to look at it from a new angle or with a new pair of eyes
but i am BELIEVING with joesph.

what satan means for evil God can use for good

now THAT is something to chew on isn’t it?

the week i came home was dakota’s prom.  i was thankful the surgery fell before prom and graduation.
last year was elise’s prom and this year was his.








i am so humbled not only to work from home but also to support those who do.  let’s support all the home businesses and put the big box stores
out of business this time…ha!  jk  here are a few of my favorites.  i have LOTS:)  i would LOVE to know some of yours!

my sweet prayer warrior friend mary & her uber talented daughter have a sweet shop HOPE HOMEMADE i want to share.  again…art from the heart.
it is a beautiful thing.


my friend BECKY is open until the 10th so be sure to go get you some word art from your heart…

SPRING is coming---happy scrappy skirt-pdf-pattern

i ordered this pattern from Little Bit Funky to make me a skirt.  i am ordering fabric from here tonight.
i can see it with a little T or a tank top with some cute necklaces & bracelets…maybe some van’s or converse?


the girls are working so hard.   this is another area i feel discouraged in..i can’t do much.  i supervise
BUT they are getting the signs done.  in two weeks we will be in a good place.  i am thankful for my girls..for my kids
i LOVE them sooooo.  i am also thankful for my sweet customers.  i can’t begin to tell you how amazing and understanding they are being.

AND that means the new changes i have on my heart can be implemented.  we think you all will like them
this down time has given me time to think..pray..reflect.


this FRIDAY we are having an INSTASALE on instagram.  ( we are houseofbelonging )as it draws near we will give you the time and all the details.
due to me being sick and then the surgery nikki had to put MOXIE on the back burner so she is really excited to share
the new designs.  you will be able to buy the shirts right then.  they will be done and ready to ship.

we will be doing more and more of our business on INSTAGRAM plus opening a new site for both the signs & MOXIE

so that is a bit about me right now…how are YOU doing?  any favorite etsy shops you adore?  are you in the midst of a dark time and if so
how is your heart?  …..xoxo

if the blessing comes through pain will you take it? an update

i am much like the little engine that could right now.  knowing i need to update  you  at the same time i am riddled with feelings of not wanting to bore you with all the grossness going on.  changes even i haven’t really dealt with yet.

i am home.  where do i begin? when it rains it pours and we are paddling…hard.  it seems when the enemy attacks it is from all sides and i am reminded of the red sea..and of gideon..and of her words..

maybe 3 days after surgery. still very bloated with the gas and water retention

Jesus is redeeming this–redeeming everything

i am clinging to these words.  i can’t even tell you how much so.  today i just hung my head and cried..thanking God for being with me even when i am so focused on my own pain.  He has never left me.  it is very up and down.  i feel overwhelmed to have to empty my bag.  it is like a baby i take care of using baby wipes to clean the end of the bag as i roll it up.  i sleep on my back when all i want is my stomach.  and staring at the stoma ( what they call the small intestine that is now coming through your abdomen ) i am scared of it.  changing the bag is scary.  i still feel like a mac truck has run over me.  i just waited to long.  i went in to sick and with a chronic disease that has evolved from mild to severe over the years with that has come pain meds that i now have to work to come off of as well.


nikki has two more days left at her insurance job.  HAPPY dance!!  she has been MY hero.  she has been taking care of me and the kids and the house and her MOXIE has been put on the back shelf and she is behind there just when it was launched and she is heavy with anxiety & worry

chelsee and her husband and the kids have moved in with us the week of my surgery!  four babies with mom and dad in one bedroom.  they sold their donut shop and are waiting to see whether they are going to move to florida or not.  chelsee has been my cleaner and cook and does our laundry ..she made me an awesome tater tot casserole tonight.  she AMAZES me with her energy to take care of the kids…and me.  both girls are researching to find good protein sources to fix me things i can eat.

i am blessed to have my kids.  i wouldn’t trade them for the WORLD.  they make me laugh..hard!  we mean something to each other.  life is so short.  i don’t want to miss a single moment.  so the more i take care of ME the more i can take care of THEM.

and my mom..she has been an unbelievable support to me.  i am grateful for this time just to be near her.   to learn more about her…to love on her and let her love on me.  she has been my chauffeur and food getter and cheerleader as i changed my bag for the first time by myself.  heck now i don’t care who sees my butt….geesh!

grace & dakota have been so good to me.  dakota tucks me in for naps and helps me up out of chairs and runs and gets more baby wipes when i need them…ha!  graci just misses her mommy.  i miss her–

dakota graduates this month so we are trying to get his grad party planned and all of the other “life” stuff that i know YOU  know very well.  you know life don’t you?  i am sure you have been through when it rains it pours times.

there is a battle going on..i don’t want to speak much of it but the kids dad is rearing his head and it causes me to stress

and i share all of that to let YOU know that we are a very real family and honestly–if  you looked at our circumstances without faith in the living God we would have no HOPE.  none.

but GOD — asked me a couple of weeks ago this question.  not audibly but as if it came out of our dialogue
one morning and it went something like this

if the blessing comes through pain will you take it?..what?
if the blessing comes through pain will you take it?

as the very conditions for blessing
enlarge territory
end of myself & circumstances
stop asking for sympathy for
hard situations or bad treatment
this is how the blessings come abba-
through pain squeezing – clenching the life breath
releases long enough as the next one builds-
where the last drop of me is spilled
so YOU can…taken from my journal 

this is what He asked me a couple of weeks ago and my heart was rent asunder.  you see– even though all of the above things are realities..the gift of this is like you are given a remote control to push a slow mo button.  i get to look around at the beating hearts and feel them.  i have been given a gift.  if i don’t receive it i will be losing out on much.  it is almost as if you are given a glimpse behind the curtain into the spiritual realm where Jesus lives.  i see it watching jen & bill last night.  watching the Duggers.  seeing cancer patients with their families at the hospital.  watching the little girl with downs syndrome LIVE life and be loved..women who are fighting each and everyday to find wholeness..the homeless..the stinky and down trodden.  the drunks..the drug addicted.  while there is a percent of the population who are hardened   who will not be changed.  there are those.

looking behind the curtain though calls to asks me ever so softly to just come.  come to where i am working.  leave all of this noisy & numbing american selfishness and COME

throw caution to the wind–will you receive the blessing? will you receive YOUR life’s calling?  we pray for blessing but i tend to think of it all packaged with twine and kraft paper…not in war, giants & blood.

we had some scary moments in the hospital after i came out of surgery and you know what?

family is the only thing that matters!
if anything else is getting in the way of nurturing that..take it out.  when it is your time there is nothing you can do and believe me
you want your family and time



for those who don’t know what is happening..for the last 10 years i have been living half a life.  having a chronic disease called ulcerative colitis that went from mild to severe over the years.  this developing disease grew inside a very abusive deceiving relationship.  it has changed the landscape of me & my family forever.

i had a colectomy tuesday.  my whole colon was removed. 
the colon’s main function is to squeeze out the water and salt from the stool.  since the colon is not needed to live the surgery i had they took my small intestine and brought it through my abdomen creating a ‘stoma’

1 week and 2 days after surgery.  i have 4 small incisions and one 4″ incision under my belly button where they removed
the colon and then my stoma where the bag is attached.  the swelling and water retention has gone now i am trying to gain
weight back.

-i will always have absorption issues
-dehydration will always be an issue
-i went in to the hospital so very sick.  i had waited to long to make this decision for surgery.  i was malnourished which resulted in my first central line so they could give me tpn ( total parental nutrition)

-what i am struggling with now is eating & drinking enough.  i have to eat 6 small meals a day.  think of  a one year old’s plate and chew chew chew.  blockages are common and i am freaking out about that so i am very careful to do all i am supposed to do.

-another issue is pain medications.  i have been on them for so long that i am going to have to work with pain management to work off of them.  keeping my pain under control while working myself off of them.

-recovery will be SLOW for me.  yes-that is hard for an impatient girl.  this too i must submit to if i want to learn.

::thank YOU::

for all of your prayers and words of encouragement.  for waiting on us.  i pray for each of YOU that you know a life of living LOVED.  that you are able to hear his love song over you each and everyday.  that no matter what you have done in the past present or future that YOU are loved and have a way of escape.  that YOU can experience heaven NOW–that you can know PEACE and have a HOPE.  that YOU can overcome the lies of the enemy and break those down so they will have no control over you.  and i earnestly pray you have a front row seat in a life of MIRACLES….i forever love you all.


you can follow us here houseofbelonging to follow our journey of finding the sacred connections within the heart-home-handmade

::SHOP news::

this surgery WAS NOT planned!  i had a flare this last november and was hospitalized and was then given the ultimatum…colon or forever living sick and in the hospital and i would not be able to continue to work or have a a good quality of life anymore.  5 months later another flare got my attention so surgery was scheduled.  there would be no good time to do it and now was as good as any.

i am closing the “sign” part of the shop  for a week or so.  Moxie will start up next week with nikki’s first week working here.
my daughters and son in law will start on all of the sign orders on Monday.  i will be sending all orders that are past due, the mock ups etc. a CONVO notifying you of your
status.  i am so disappointed that my customers have had to wait several weeks and if there was anything i could differently i would.  i got so sick the last several weeks i couldn’t see straight.  i don’t know how i got through it until the surgery except by the grace of God.  a million thank you’s.  

REMEMBER – we are combining our shops ( house of belonging signs & MOXIE ) into ONE store.  we will still have our Etsy shops with special items in there but all custom orders and new additions will be in the new store.  nikki will be working on that next week as well
we will let you know the URL soon. 


and i cry out for grace.  each day is new and hard.  but it is a brand NEW day..

:how powerful we are when we cheer for each other…read LIFTING OF ARMS by Rebekah Lyons


prayer concerns

find the right things to eat to gain weight
for fear of blockages and the bag to vanish
to stay hydrated
for God to be our refuge and strength that we KNOW His presence as that
for the feelings of condemned isolation & powerlessness to disappear
come down off pain meds easy
to be able to catch up quickly on orders with minimal stress

for God to shine through all of this..


my heart. SHOP news. SURGERY & a recipe

::the heart

the physical pain right now..weighed down by the business and  people who really don’t understand is threatening to take me down each day.  i am whittled down to doing the bare necessities.  for those of you who have recently been really sick with the body ache flu or throwing up bug and that feeling of “i’m gonna die” …you remember and relate right?:)  you know how everything just falls apart around you.  for those of you who haven’t been sick in a really long time..i’m glad for you but it is harder to relate until you have been visited by sickness isn’t it?


hoping that writing it down here will lighten the load.  i feel somewhat helpless in all of this.  i am at the mercy of a disease i cannot control.  not only that it is at the time that i am coming into myself.  my life has been one of seeming to get there then something happens and it all falls apart.  sitting there in the middle of a million pieces of broken glass not knowing which piece to pick up first so i bury my head in my hands and sob.  i dare not shake my fist at God  i have to be cautious not to walk backwards here.  things feel all to familiar and i can hear the whispers even now…see  you will never get out

this time the wave of sickness has knocked me down.  it was only 5 months ago i was in the hospital and Christmas was approaching and i had lots of sign orders and was getting farther behind by the day.  most customers were very nice but people really don’t walk in your shoes.  they don’t know how sick i really am.  after all i post and ig how sick can she be right?  they don’t take colons out of not sick people.  they don’t know that i have 30 orders for custom made signs.  theirs is not the only order and those things weigh heavy on my heart making me feel even worse.  we got caught up..i cycled through to the place of feeling ok..i could function at 65%..then slowly it comes back around


and this time i am done.  i am sick of being sick and tired.  but when a person is really sick it is craziness for me to try to work when it only makes me worse.  i cry and in reality i think, “this isn’t an emergency” so why are you acting like it is.  you are sick!  people can wait. and most are MORE than willing to wait..they are the precious ones.  it maybe a few weeks at the push myself to work when it makes me so much worse and the simple fact is i can’t is CRAZY!  i have to take care of myself.  to wait several more weeks for a sign is nothing in the grand scheme of things.  Ann Voscamp encourages us that LIFE isn’t an emergency and she’s right.  i have some help coming to work with me very soon and it will all work out.

there is a reason i have insurance right now.  i won’t always have it and if want to be around to work a business i need to deal with this.

we have a family crisis right now.  Jesus followers are not exempt from anything.  we face the same things everyone else faces which is why today i am sitting underneath the shadow of His wings..taking refuge in His love.

nikki and i run this house.  we have to come first.  there has never been a sign not received.  i will and have bent over backwards for my customers.  i value them – their support keeps us afloat.   there is only so much i can share here but YOU are supporting my exodus.  can you tell i am venting here?


this is major surgery.  life changing surgery and for the most part i am at peace with that.
what i am more afraid of than a bag of poop is being alone in the middle of those broken pieces and not having my God who will ride through the heavens to help ME.  He is taking me OUT to bring me into a new place of promise..MY place of promise..and nothing is to difficult for GOD.  i have found IT and i am not letting go.  I am saying NO to this surgery as a work to discourage and destroy me and my family.  NO – not THIS time!

i can hear the air still and the soft breeze begin to blow softly brushing my hair back.  the sobbing slows and i find courage and take her hand.  she smiles wide and squeezes my hand as if to say “your in the arena girl…don’t forget” .  she sits with me while an inaudible conversation takes place that goes something like this.

 i will be as vulnerable as you would have me to abba.  i will share what you would have me share and do what you would have me do–i hold my hands out and and let it all go.  after all it really isn’t mine to begin with.  i  don’t have to worry about which piece to pick up first..just get up and do the next thing.  the piece will come as YOU choose to BELIEVE with open hands..held out to the true Giver

i CHOOSE to BELIEVE YOU and i refuse to succumb to those whispers of “see ” in this place of familiar.  in my story He always finds me

He found him in a desert land,
and in the howling waste of a wilderness;
He encircled him, He cared for him,
he guarded him as the pupil of His eye.
–Deuteronomy 32:10


:: the shop

we are going to combine MOXIE and the HOUSE signs into one store.  it will be up and running soon.  we will have a few things left in Etsy but all the new signs/shirts from here on out will be in our new store.  yay!!

nikki is trying to take care of me and finish up loose ends at work before her last day
as soon as she does that she will hit MOXIE full force

when dreams are being written you can bet your bottom dollar there will be war.  dreams don’t happen without …
i am choosing to hang onto this mindset and tell the other one to take a hike jack!
we may have some bumps in the road but we are WHY NOT girls!!

and for my IG friends the banana ice cream recipe:)  you can find me at houseofbelonging


 banana “ice cream” with sweet & salty roasted almonds

Photo: .for banana almond ice cream. #nourishourbodiesinthekitchen

this recipe has all the rich, creamy texture of ice cream with none of the dairy or sugar.  the crunchy topping is a snap to put together and so, so good

makes about 1 pint

4 ripe bananas, peeled and sliced into thin rounds

1/4 c finely chopped roasted almonds

2 teaspoons plus 2 tablespoons good-quality maple syrup, divided

a pinch of coarse sea salt

1/2 c unsweetened almond milk

1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract

freeze the banana slices in a single layer on a tray or plate lined with parchment or wax paper.  once the slices are frozen
use them immediately or keep them frozen in a zip-top plastic bag or airtight container for up to a month.

meanwhile, in a small bowl, combine the almonds with 2 teaspoons of the maple syrup and the pinch of salt and set the mix

combine the frozen banana slices, the almond milk, the remaining 2 TB of maple syrup, and the vanilla in a food processor and pulse until the mixture is the texture of soft serve ice cream, scraping down the sides as necessary.  don’t worry
if the mixture is not totally smooth at first–once the bananas start to break down and defrost in the food processor, they’ll
give in and the “ice cream” will take shape quickly

spoon the banana ice cream into bowls immediately and sprinkle each serving with a bit of the almond mixture.


taken from Its All Good Cookbook by Gwyneth Paltrow



update – they have moved up my surgery to THIS tuesday april 23.  i am soooo thankful..i don’t think i can hang on that long.  i go today to meet with the surgeon one last time.  i have a LIST of questions.    i know it is like a 6 hour surgery.  i have never had major surgery before.  i am a little ok a lot scared.
monday i go meet the stoma nurse for placement of the stoma.  i have to bring clothes i normally wear to see how the bag will work with my clothes.  i have to be there at 10 to check in and then surgery is at noon.  we will keep you posted on everything here on the blog and on IG.

love you all….xo