those 3 words had me at HELLO. PEACE of MIND ya’ll. I need some of that. As you know we are taking 2013 and doing an experiment.
What do we have to lose right…my mind if I don’t make some serious changes.
It is not my job, my home, my issues or circumstances….no not really
It is an inner struggle known to each of us and we are given the responsibility to be the curators of our lives.
(if only i’d known this at 16…isn’t hindsight always 20/20?)
I have chosen to intentionally RE-BOOT this family. You can clickhereto read the beginning. There is piles upon piles
of clutter..and honestly – I believe it represents stuff. More on that coming up..so before I go off on a rabbit trail let’s talk dinners.
I have been dabbling in several eating lifestyles like Paleo, Vegan, Gluten Free, low Carb & Vegetarian but here’s the kicker for me
Menus. I mean – I do work a full-time job and I don’t have time to spend in the kitchen half the day or planning all this healthy
menus only to run out of food to eat come Wednesday. I mean – when the kids open the fridge and there is spinach leaves, apples, oranges,
fruit….some cheese and pepperoni…they look at me with the mom…really? there is NO food in this house.
oh how entitled we American’s have become…so when I saw this new plan from EMealz with Target as the grocery store
and you KNOW my love for all things Target…I know your with me:)
I don’t know if it is a sign from God or not ( wink ) but I am going to try it for 1 month
one month…if it doesn’t pan out…ditch it and try something else until I find something that works for me.
key word: me
what works for your family may very well be different and that is OOOKKKKKK:)
I will keep ya posted..i would love to know if you have a menu plan that really works and that is easy to stick to and
the kids have enough food for the week. I also pack their lunches everyday which does add expense…
I’m all ears
we all have a story don’t we? regardless of how we arrived at this point we find ourselves worn out
starved & over stimulated. We are captives to the lie that we are unlimited. I dying for freedom. I need an intervention.
maybe you come from the old school where if it ain’t broke don’t fix it
maybe you are a pioneer..forging ahead sick and tired of being sick and tired and want to
take back the territory that has been so sneakily taken
I am a pioneer at heart. a visionary if you will but i have never known what to do about it…until lately.
I see how upside down it all is and how much I try to cram in one day
so much so that I need every organizational tool and label out there so as not to forget myself! I seem to have bought into the age of unlimited .. that there is nothing I can’t do if I work hard enough
Blog world has in so many ways made this all even worse. The wanting. The comparing. We all know that
people’s lives aren’t really that clean and put together all of the time but still…
all the pretty pictures are just morsels that are dangled in front of our naturally greedy little selves
and more often than not…we take a bite..
well- what if you are a mom who makes 20,000 a year and you have four kids? what then?
( i could give you 10 different scenarios of life circumstances here but you get the idea? ) is this dream really what we should be striving for? and at what cost? and does it then begin to erode our self talk so that we are constantly unhappy and
dissatisfied and bottom line… grumpily ungrateful…and we tape on a smile fooling ourselves that we are really “ok”
It comes from inside. It is not about the money-the home-the kids-the job…it comes from inside and if it stems from there
just maybe changes can truly be made. It is the woman’s heart behind the home on the blog. If you took away her blog, her home
her clothes, her nice car etc would you still want to know her? Her answer would be yes…i am still that same person! LOVE me for ME…and that is the cry of our hearts isn’t it?
well..there is years of dysfunction where we are opening my story. In time we are going to open some of that upbut for today
I want to touch the tip of the iceberg with our RE – BOOT.
If you have followed us for very long you know I was in the hospital around thanksgiving.
I have severe Ulcerative Colitis and to make a long story short I now am steroid dependent.
I am out of options and have been left staring at surgery to remove my colon ( large intestine )
AND i am not a good candidate for the jpouch surgery ( would take away the bag after a year ) so if i decide to have the surgery i am pretty much looking at having a poop bag the rest of my life and while I “thought” i was ok with that …now i am not sure
I am at a crossroads at a time in life when things “should” be somewhat settled
I have started down this road several times and quit. The same things keep happening over and over again
with the same results. You know this is the definition of insanity right?
We know all of this but what can we realistically do about it. The crazed mom syndrome has us going so many different directions
we eat the leftovers off our kids plates…run through any fast food joint or throw a bag
or box of frozen fake ingredients in the oven and truly I believe most of us are plagued with guilt because we really
do want to go back to June Cleaver and be there fully present for our kids and families cooking real food into
real meals and sitting around the table every night. We are tired of feeling spread so thin and at one little bobble and the dam breaks and we explode
which leaves us limp with guilt- confused and feeling like failures.
so we escape ( insert your vice here)
My goal in 2013 is to get a handle on how to get off this merry go round once and for ALL.
To make lasting real changes. to FLY in the face of our American culture. I would wager that women..even
very successful ones feel like this. It crosses all economic boundaries.
I believe its woman thing…and even more so…a christian woman thing
I believe that biggest underlying culprit ( brace yourselves for this ) is WANTING MORE.
we want more so we work more..and that is like a octopus with tentacles each
representing our children, our homes, our cars
our jobs, our social status, our blogs, and how we look you get the picture?
we want more in all of these areas and we are trading our very souls for an illusion of MORE
this has really plagued me for several years now…so i am hoping with this RE-BOOT
and much soul searching before God I can find a healthy balance
for me and my family and our home…i am slightly uneasy about how that may pan out.
I feel led to do this so i hope you don’t mind. i will be sharing our re-booting journey.
I PRAY pray that my sharing my story will encourage and inspire you to keep going.
Not only to make lasting change..
but to IMPACT YOUR life and those within your influence.
This RE-BOOT is for all you sisters with pioneer hearts. All you warrior women.
This song sums up my life so i thought it appropriate for the song of the week. I hope you enjoy:)
Plumb – I Need YOU Now
SO go grab your rugged terrain boots and some pen & paper sisters…we’ve got to chart out our next move.
so if you see me .. gently remind me to get back to the moment
it is just a teensy thing really but it might just….i will let you know
what are your thoughts on fasting technology
3 days until
DISCLAIMER: i do not say this from a place of judgement..ever! you know that right? this is just my story and i always pray that in some way it will inspire you. just while we are going through re-bootingi think it just might be something small i can take off my plate even if only one day a week.
wait until you see what i am having the kids wear on Dumpster Day…beards .. ducks .. camo HINT HINT:)
mommy..i’m unhappy — i sensed there was more so i laid on the bed with her and out it came.
to protect her heart i will not share here but the words she said to me rang true
and this is what they were
we need to re-boot our FAMILY
reboot mean to restart-put in a new operating system and turning it on
so we talked and decided that our first course of action to our new operating system is to do a major de-clutter!
the kind when you bring in a dumpster
we are cleaning out the entire house peeps..no small feat! throwing away – giving away – or storing in our shed
because here is the keeping it real part
i am up to my eyeballs in work which takes over my living room due to lack of space downstairs
I work seven days a week
have very little time to really cook..or clean
I have all the bills, doctor visits, phone calls, errands and you know all the stuff us mom’s do
and I am full of stress and that is not good for my health
Does God use our children to speak to us? I do believe so
and that is what it took for me to “hear” We need some major re-booting in this family.
since i am the mom it is my responsibility to do something about it.
The first step to rebooting one’s family
1. find the main thing that is causing a bump in the road and start there take action
the dumpster is coming Friday and the kids and I have all agreed to work all weekend cleaning the basement out
there WILL be pictures… and LOTS more on this subject as we begin the re-booting process:)
she was prayed for before she was ever conceived. i prayed for a girl. she was the fifth. i prayed for my heart:)
i heard a muffled talking the other day. i crept up to the door and listened. smiled. she’s doing a tutorial. on makeup application! and it got me to thinking.
she came forth sparkling i swear. always smiling and eyes that sparkle.
she has loved fashion and makeup and hair since i can remember.
she doesn’t care to do what everyone else is doing or
wear what everyone else is wearing. i love that about her. a lot
in fact – i encourage that in her. i didn’t with my oldest kids who are now grown.
i was much older when i had grace.
my heart for her is that she will learn that her journey is where she will become strong
her strength is from God not within herself.
that she waits for a man that will love her heart, her mind and dream her dreams as well as his own
one that will respect her true love waits ring because he too is waiting
that she explores her God given dreams with no pressure to marry before her time
that she opens her heart to God’s invitation to be transformed by Him in her reality..
that she stands when no one else does
that she speaks for those who cannot
that she be the light when everything else is dark
that she has the eyes to see the lovely in the unlovely for that is so often where we see God
that she lives loved .. because she knows she is loved by God
the she hears His song over her each and everyday
that she is able to forgive because she knows the depth of her forgiveness
that family always matters
the keeps she keeps God first, others second and herself third
that her trust is always safe with God
that even if she had no one she is not everalone because God is always with her.
that she has a heavenly Father who gives good gifts to His children
and the gifts He has given her have been hand chosen for a purpose and
that she is able to see them and i – her momma – will be able to see them
and with each day encourage them and not squash them..even when they are not
and that i remember that she is created and knitted together not to be another me but to be her oh…and her future husband have enough money to support her clothes and makeup amen
disclaminer:) - her video is like 20 minutes so i shortened it to 14 minutes! i thought the video sweet and smiled so i told her if she can cut them down that i would love to have her on the blog twice a month or so to talk about fashion and makeup etc. for tweens