a few questions answered…your turn at the end & pictures

What a beautiful Wednesday.  The birds are singing outside my window as I type.  It is time I sit down and address a few questions ya’ll have asked me.

This is me.  I’m in the middle with my two youngest kids on either side.  Oblivious to their antics while Nikki ( my oldest daughter who is 26 ) was shooting the picture.


 I will be 44 this April.  Yeah for the 40′s!!;)  I have 5 children.

Nikki 26 who is not married and lives at home with me.

Chelsee who is 25.  Married to Phillip.  They own a donut shop an hour and a half away and he is a part time youth pastor of a church a mile from where I live.  They travel up here on Wednesday’s and Sunday’s.  They have 3 children and one on the way this June.

So I have 4 grand children.  One grandson Reed who is 4.  And three grand daughters.  Karalina – 3.  Khloey – 1 and Kynzie still in mommy’s tummy:)

 This is Reedster’s.  He is our sensitive boy.  Sweet and the first born so he corrals his sisters.  Not sure he is liking being the only boy though.

They took him to the sonogram and he was upset to say the least:)

This is the fierce Karalina who has a little froggy voice and demands attention upon walking in the room.  Her voice is…LOUD:)

Chelsee says our sign that says ” even though she be but little she is fierce ” is a perfect match for our K.  We are waiting for her to grow some hair.  She is so tiny for three I think Khloey will catch up to her by next year.

She is our sweet quiet one.  Until she has a temper tantrum…full blown throwing the head back..laying down and kicking kind.  Yeah…remember those girls?  She then is not so quiet.  She is quite deceptive.  She has a very loud cry.  And this girl takes after her grandma in that she LOVES to eat!!

Auntie Nikki made mashed potatoes last week and this girl said..mmmmmm after every bite.  She comes to anyone who is eating and opens her mouth.  Adorable!

This is Nikki.  My first born.  My cohort in crime.  My best friend.  We are alike in so many things and opposite in the things that are needful.  I think that is why we work together so well.  We started our sign & furniture business at Restoration Emporium in February.  She is going part time at the insurance agency she works at starting next week.  I will have her on Thursdays and Fridays!!  I am so excited to hit the business even harder.

We have so many fun ideas that we will be implementing so stay tuned!:)

Plus begin remodeling our house that we moved into this last November.  More on that further on down.

Then Reece who is 21.  Sadly he is off doing his own thing.  I haven’t seen him in several years.  Praying is what I do.

I found this picture of all of us from the Fourth of July 2005.  Reece is on the far left.  Wow have they all grown up!

and then

There is Dakota.  He is a junior this year.  All of the senior stuff will begin very soon.  I can’t believe this little boy is 17!  He is a good kid.  He was a mama’s boy growing up and I know I spoiled him but I think a few years ago I began to cut the apron strings:)  Just wishing I could get him to clean his room!!  I stopped doing that for him and funny thing is they don’t care!!  They live in the mess.  Boys!

He plays football.  LOVES his car and his girlfriend.  I love her too.  They are going to prom April 21 and I am super excited.  I want Nikki to do a photo shoot of them.  Her name is Elise and she is everything I’ve prayed for.  Now I don’t know if they will get married.  WAY to soon to think about that because she goes to college at MU this fall.  BUT I’m just saying.  It is hard for a mama to love her son’s girl/wife….you know what I’m saying mom’s of boys?

This is Elise.  He is 6’3 and she is 5′ 11 I think.  They fit together perfectly.  She loves it that she can wear heels and still be shorter than him.

 Last but not least is our Loubert.  Her nickname.  Lou became her nick name because one of her middle names is Louise after her Nana.  Her full name is Grace Kerrington Louise..

She is the baby but doesn’t act like one at all.  She was a competitive gymnast at GAGE for 4 and a half years.  She quit in December 2010 right before getting her very own floor routine at level 8.  But we understood.  She worked out 30 hours a week and her body showed it:)

This is a picture of her first weeks after starting level 4.  The coach of the team where she was cheer leading at was watching her and asked her if she would like to join the team and the rest is history.

 Grace and her bestie..Sydney.  They were going to a Father Daughter dance on Valentines day.  Crazy pipes!!  Crazy girls

How I miss all those girls and their mama’s some days.

Her is her posing for Nikki on the beach in Florida at her Aunt Amber’s wedding.

she was beautiful on the floor and beam…a big sigh:(

and we live here now.  In Missouri.  We moved here this last November.  It is my husbands mom’s house.  She lived here for over 30 years.  My husband and his siblings grew up here.  His mom moved about two hours away.  She bought a house with some land.

Here is the verse God gave me before we even moved here and after moving in it made more sense.

DWELL in the land and cultivate faithfulness

God knows our hearts.  We have moved about 20 times in the same area over the last 15 years.  Pure crazyiness.

I believe God is showing me that now is our time to settle in.  To make a home.

Are you separated?  Yes and no.  We have been separated several times.  This last time I moved to a house and he moved to his moms.

And here in is where God intervened in such a way that I STILL can’t believe it.  If you would have told me a year ago all of this would have happened I would have laughed.  I don’t talk about it much on my blog for obvious reasons.  It is personal.  On the other hand it is my story and my reality and I believe in the future I would like to write a book on it.

I know crazy abusive relationships exists everywhere.  They aren’t limited to just poor people or scary looking people.  And they aren’t just all cases of hitting the woman.  They can be so crazy making.

To make it short…my husband owned his own business for years.  Handled it poorly.  After separting this last year God opened a door for him that has taken him to another state.  A job that has insurance!  which we never had AND pays pretty well.  After talking to trusted people I thought it best to move us into his mom’s home since he is never home anymore.  He has been back twice since October and only for a few days each time.

I had given up hope of things EVER changing!  The funny thing is now his checks come to me and he is not in control of the money anymore.  So things are SLOWLY…becoming more routine.  There is so much more on all of this but to answer your question if he were living back here yes we would still be separated.  As of now we are married and his checks are coming to us.  I don’t know what the future holds and honestly I don’t go there.  Right now the kids and I are happy.

On my end God has opened a wide door for me.  I am creating..loving..trusting..meeting new people.  Coming out of my shell.  Coming into WHO I am purposed to be.  Living my dream.  I am happy and at peace and I am doing my best to live in the present moments.  Staying away from negetive manipulative people and being attentive daily to what God is doing around me.  Being thankful for every little thing I can.

Is it HARD?  You bet it is.  Growing is going out of your comfort zone.  It is stretching and that hurts.  But I am doing just that.  God’s timing is ALWAYS perfect.  Would you do it again?  Yes…12 years of HELL to get here..where God has me now?  Yes..I would.


tell me..how many children you have?  grandbabies?  what state you live in?  just something about YOU:)

I want to know about YOU….



tara - loved reading more details about you….and your life and your family.

you have a beautiful family…that picture with all of you in it from the 4th of july in 2005 is precious. I am praying now for continued healing in your family…praying the Lord does what only He can do.


married 15 years.

3 kids.

two boys and 1 daughter.

11, 9 and 5.

been at home for 12 years.

homeschooled for 4 years.

in full time ministry for 12 years.

youth ministry for 8, college ministry for 3 and small group ministry since last august.

thankful for your friendship!

kerrie - You always encourage me to open up. I don't share my family life on my blog either. Three of my children are adults now and I just don't want them to have to worry or wonder what I might be posting about them on my blog. They have enough to worry about, especially with all the FB and twitter cr*p! I really think this stuff makes their lives more complicated and stressful. I don't want to be one to add to that stress.

I enjoyed reading this honest post and seeing your family. You didn't share too much but just the right amount to let us see who you are. Maybe I will do a post like this in the future. For now though, since you asked, this is me…

I have been married for 24 yrs. to my first and only love.

We married in the summer before my senior year of college. We were stationed to go to Ghana Africa in the Peace Corps but I got pregnant with our first born.

We went on to have four children in five yrs!

I have been a stay at home mom for 23 yrs.

I homeschooled for 15 yrs.

I have always been an Artist but now have alot more time to paint and I opened an Etsy shop last year. My art has been on display in a local gallery. I look forward to the future.

My marriage is on the road to restoration after 12 yrs of brokenness.

Saritaschwedes - Thank you for sharing your lovely family.

I have three sons.the first one I gave up for adoption. We found each other in1996. We have no relationship per hi request.we exchanged to letters then. Through the intrnet I have found out about him and hi family. I'm not stocking him! Everytime my heart needs something about him God gives me some more info.

My next oldest Son is 28 and has. Great job and 2wonderful sons. I get to watch them two dys a week.they at terrific! My youngest on is 25. He and his I've live in Ashland oregon. He loves his job. I am so blessed to have my ons. My husband of 30years died almost 3 years ago. I was a stay at home mom and now I'm stay at home grandma! I work with the hospice that my husband was with when he died. On saturday I call approx. 45 hospice families to see how things are going with them. I love it. Oh! I turned 61 this past march 11. Thank you again for sharing your family.prayers or God to answer YOUR prayers.

Midwest Magnolia - M - I loved reading this, and I have loved seeing your blogs transformation over this last year as well. Your story will inspire so many other women, and encourage them too to follow those little or not-so-little nudges God gives us as we follow his plan. Thank you for sharing your heart!

BTW- I am shocked, had no idea you were old enough to have grand-babies. You look fabulous:)

Diana Trautwein - Congratulations on your beautiful family, Tiffani. And many, many blessings as you continue in your new business and as you prayerfully move through and to the future in regard to your marriage. You have grown so much this past year! Wow. God is good and faithful.

I've got 3 grown kids – two daughters, one son. 3 amazing children-in-law and 8 grandkids ranging in age from 21 to 2. Recently retired from 17 years in a mid-life job as a pastor, being trained in spiritual direction and practicing my writing and photography out here in blogland. That's about it…

marlece - You have a beautiful family. Everyone of them are just bright and beautiful, you should and sound like a very proud Momma. This last part, of you and husbands seperation? It sounds like my story a bit, he got a job that he's been away for over 6 months now but he's coming back for a job back here and truthfully I'm scared out of my mind. Anticipation of a move of the Holy Spirit, He can move mountains right?

Glenda Childers - Such a beautiful family, Tiffini.

Becky @ Farmgirl Pai - LOVE that you got so personal and shared all your secrets. Can't believe your a grandma…I mean I knew that but it's CRAZY! You have a beautiful family. Can't wait to see all the remodeling. That will be so fun.

Things you don't know about me. I have two older brothers. They are 11 and 12 years older. I was the baby. I'm left handed. Got kicked out of my Christian school in high school because of a boy;) I love reality tv. Oh there's more, but I feel like you know me already. Weird how the internet works.

mandy - Saritaschwedes,crazy! i live in Grants Pass, Oregon {about 30 minutes from her}!

i have 4 kids, boy-10, girl-8, boy-5, boy-almost 4.

started a homeschooling journey this school year.

married for almost 12 years, most of them very good, but we've all walked the valleys;)

this was a fun post, prayers for your continued journey as the Lord leads you family to restoration.

Robyn Q - Your story makes me smile so big. Beauty from ashes, life in death and love even in the broken. Isn't He good? And it's not the end of the story yet! So exciting!

Gloria - I live in New Hampshire, and I think I'm older than you – but no grandbabies yet! I have 3 children, Nicholas 24, Daniel 20, and Megan 18. I drag my daughter to antique stores and yard sales, she's not hooked yet but I see the potential. My son Nick is also "doing his own thing" right now, but I am trusting God with him too, and I pray. I've been through troubled times too, but I know Jesus holds me in His everlasting arms. I am new to blogging, as well as reworking, repurposing, reusing, junking, yardsaling, antiquing, etc., but I'm learning and I'm loving it! Trying to figure out my dream still – I'll be hitting the big 50 this year so I think it's time I figure out what I want to do when I grow up! You are an inspiration Tiffani, keeping you, your family, and your business in my prayers.

angela - I live in North Carolina. My three are grown. Son, 34. Daughter 31. Son 30. Five grands. Girl:4. Girl: 2. Boy 15 months. Twin Boys 5 months. Enjoyed reading about you here!

Kellie - I am a mother of three and step mother to one. I have a granddaughter on the way, which is awesome! She is due on my son’s 23rd birthday, which is a bummer, because my son left this earth four years ago this month. It was a very big deal, as he ended his own life. I am feeling mostly pretty strong, although I had a rough day this week on the anniversary of his passing (July 18).

I just started my blog a few months ago to try to explore and encourage others who have lost much. Stumbled on yours somehow through pinterest.

Hoping all is well with you and yours.

:) Kellie

Farmgirl Chaos - I just clicked on a photo for a different post at the bottom of your most recent blog post, and look where it got me! Yes, it’s over a year old. But thanks for sharing! Maybe I should keep working on my stalking skills, and read over more past posts. :)

Me….not married. But want to be. (Just waiting on God and the man he has for me.) No kids. But I want at least 4. Whether biological or adopted. I live in Iowa. I have tried a few times to leave the state, but it hasn’t happened. I guess it’s where I’m meant to be for now. Lately I have actually been wondering about moving back to the ‘homeland’ area, or at least within 15-20 miles of the farm. I’m a farmgirl. It runs deep in my blood, but I love it! But who knows. Well, God does. :)

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