while the day is winding down..and so am I. Down I mean. So down that my physical body is done for the day. I’ve not felt well. I think the things that I know I can’t control and by God’s grace I haven’t really tried. But I know all of the shoes that could drop at anytime and I am allowing them to overwhelm me a bit.
I’m letting the worry of whether or not we get this house creep in. This house that seems so perfect. This is the fourth time I’ve tried. I have prayed that I don’t want to go anywhere where His presence doesn’t come with us. I mean it…really I do but I am battling fear right now. Fear is a bully. I am trying to start a business to have income for us, getting ready to pack for the third time, getting ready to move in the next two weeks whether to this house or a motel. The last thing I need is to get sick.
So what am I going to do?
I took a nap. Just let my body have its way. I just stopped all I was doing. I ate Chinese…not sure about that yet:)… and I thought about
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New Day Foster Home and all the children there..Karen and Hannah
Prayed about Kim..
Thought about Gabi and her battle with cancer..
I opened my computer and checked my email and a sweet sweet friend sent me an email that made me cry tears of knowing I’m not alone. Thank you just seems so inadequate..
I just began thanking God for all of the blessings He has given me … just today. And there are alot of them! I thanked Him that He is fighting for me even while I type. He knows all secrets…He sees me.
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It hasn’t taken away my feeling way to exhausted but it has lifted my spirits. Enough that I wanted to write it out. To just get up off the couch. My house is a wreck and I have a million things to do this weekend but in light of all that – I am stubbornly going to choose to claim victory! The war is won. If not this than another way but He is making a way for me and I am still choosing to write a new story.
what things are you being intentional about lately?
Praying a day of gratitude over each of you today. Love you all…
Oh wise, beautiful
teacher, thank you
for helping me to
see the world a bit
differently and to
continue learning
about this gift that
we call life. I love
how you listen to your
body and your spirit.
I am sending you prayers.
And I've got my fingers
crossed that things turn
out the way you are hoping…
Love and hugs.
xx Suzanne
YOU are a teacher friend…love you! I love how we all learn from each other…one big chain of hands held in support and love no matter what!
i so respect your transparency. you are an encouragement to so many!
prayers for you this weekend
xo
you inspire me…all of you! I feel so small in all of your light…His light through you…xo
oh girlie i'm lifting you up right now. you know we've walked this path before you. it is SO hard…fear is such an awful thing and you want so bad not to give in…to have faith…but your body just takes over sometimes. pour yourself out, give it to Him…no matter what HE's in complete control. He has a purpose and a plan to prosper you…not to harm you. it is all going to work out beautifully…just rest in that peace. love you sweet friend.
I know you have Becky…I know! I am lifting you up and you are on my heart. I'm SO thankful we all are walking together and can lift each other up.
This is one of the only reason's I couldn't throw my computer out the window…lol! Deepest thankyou's…
like you, i'm exhausted. school started this week, and that means scurrying around on a concrete floor for 9 hours a day. i've been intentional about rest because phyisical exhaustion leads to mental exhaustion which leads to depression for me….so resting on the couch, talking with husband, reading….not worrying about the house or an elaborate dinner.
oh have I learned this Kendal! resting my body. I am the SAME way! wish I would have learned this earlier. I've been napping here and there in the days. It does help. Doesn't make it all go away
but it does help my mind to deal better..xo
Praying for you. Wishing you could come pick corn and apricots with me…letting the worries drift away. I am believing with absolute certainty that God is about to move. Be still…receive.
From One Thousand Gifts I read this morning again…"His difficulties the oxygen for joys fire."
Blessings for you Tiff!
love that…His difficulties the oxygen for joys fire! love it…need to make a sign of that one! xo