Strength is born in the deep silence of long-suffering hearts; not amidst joy.
— Felicia Hemans
open the hand
squeezing so hard whites of knuckles hold on to my plans for the week when the back goes broken…again. and my mind is tumultuous in its searching for footing..fighting to find You as the venomous lies seek to steal me away from my Lover…seek for me to succumb to adultery. And when I can’t feel my feelings anymore through searing pain and downward spiraling despair the corner of my eye a red thread dangles so small one could barely see it if one wasn’t looking.
He knows the way I go
Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.
— C.S. Lewis
the words lubricate..relax..then open to receive
its Yours..this back..this day..even this weeks plans..the house..the cleaning..the painting..the field trips..the appointments. For the only one that matters
right here- right now- is divine. A divine appointment because there is a treasure hidden amidst the darkness. A gift You want to give. An adventure of a lifetime and I don’t want to miss a single moment.
A sweet morsel from heaven and I want to ingest it way down deep. Until it becomes a part of who I am. There is no place for hurry, duty, or ”to do” listing…not in this place. I fall on my face to the Only One I want to follow..to consume me..
I’m listening
XO~
Have you ever kept a divine appointment?
How about holding on to your plans for the day instead of releasing them?
Has pain ever kept you still..where you had to listen?
beautiful photo here
Oh, the back. My back first went out when I was 24, and I had never experienced pain like that, the sheer revolt of my spine. It was all tangled up with feeling like I was a bad person, which made the pain worse. The arbitrariness and uncertainty of when my back would seize was infuriating to me. Now in my 40's, my back is stronger, but still a ghost of the old pain can scare me. Staying present is the way toward healing–as hard as that is to not go rushing into what needs to be done. A divine appointment. I like that phrase.
just got back from vacation… have missed your posts, am happy to catch up. Wanted to let you know i was still around…
Oh praying for you! Pain… I just can't imagine. I love what is coming through your spirit. You're doing it! I've had a bit of a rough week and I just love these words thread together: "An adventure of a lifetime and I don’t want to miss a single moment." I have had to remind myself to stay in the moments this week. This is so encouraging for me. Thank you for your sacrifice of words today. Be well, be blessed. Robyn Q
PS I love this picture!
Beautiful post, Tiffini. I love that CS Lewis quote. So very true.
I'm having terrible back problems as well.
Mostly behind my shoulder blades. It can be so debilitating. I pray you feel better soon! And I try to remember to do this every day~ to give it all to Him. But it's so easy to get lost in our own direction, isn't it.
Oh, how well I know the forced stillness that comes with health issues. I was once in bed for 9 weeks straight…couldn't even read a book. All I could cling to was the Lord…and He was enough. Always enough. I have learned more in those down times than I've ever learned in the up times. Perhaps because I'm too quick to return to my own way instead of surrendering to His. But the sweet thing is, that as he teaches you during times like these, you begin to want to surrender more when you aren't forced. I love that.
Blessings to you in your forced stillness, sweet friend.
Love,
Linsey
so beautiful friend:) yes, truly, you know, when He lays us low it is to raise us up in Him…the stripping bare and all our wounded nakedness are when His work begins…
sending love and prayers to you, faithful friend:) xoxo
I'm so sorry about your back, Tiffini. Praying for healing, comfort, and fruit from this time laid low. How I needed these words today, friend. Starting over–every day new. Now that is good news.
Praying for you,
girlie. I've been
there with my own
back and it can be
so hard to take the
time that you to in
order to recover enough
to go back to your plans.
Sometimes releasing them
and just take it moment
by moment is the best
way. Hang in there, T!
xx Suzanne