Monthly Archives: June 2011

Day 10 of 72 : addictions are only empty places?


I think addictions are only empty places.  Places of craving that we seek to quiet with things man makes.

things men make for man still leaves empty and in need of more = addiction


We talked alongside the road last week and with all that

was within me I prayed for You to fill the empty places..I confessed my putting people, things…even myself trying to fill

places You designed for only You to fill.

every day since You’ve filled the empty places. i’m falling in love with Youanew.

in You i have all i will ever really need.  for this journey…the co-mingling of my choices and Your plan.

You love me enough to lay down your life for me.  i only have to read your words to hear

Your love for me.

i want You to be my Man.  my heart all aflutter and I can’t seem to stop it from overflowing.


In You I am enough~






Days 8 & 9 of 72 : the time between Friday and Monday

Grace and her friends spent an evening washing cars. Remember those days?  I do.  My grandma would pay us to wash her blue Monte Carlo. They are working for money to go towards their clubhouse Hido Jo.

God knows I have been on a journey of being the woman that I am instead of the little girl that I feel like.  Pinterest has got me pinning outfits that I see myself in…at least via computer.  This weekend at Marshall’s I was determined to find some heels that I love-were comfortable-and that didn’t make me feel like….well….inappropriate.  For whatever reason –  I don’t wear heels because I feel like a not nice girl.  It is hard to explain.  Not any longer!  I have been intentionally letting God work on this area of my life.  I LONG to feel and look like a woman.  Well – these beauty’s spoke to me in all three areas.

I struggled for a bit with the price but I finally caved.  I love these!  I wore them on Saturday when we all went to lunch.  Yes – I felt all the usual feelings but I did it anyway with much assurance I looked perfectly fine! They are Kanna shoes and let me tell you – if you find them at Marshall’s buy them!  They are made in Spain and to die for!

Tara wrote a post as well as Linsey…two of my gals and so I thought I would blurb about it : it is addicting if you let it.  I just started pinning because we are moving on July 28.  We got to move back the date a month…sigh:)  This is a place where I can put all of my inspiration for remodeling.  Als0 – I love seeing what all of my girls are pinning.  I have more I want to follow I just have to make time.  You know how it is.  Go check it out!  Hint:  Just give yourself only so long and then get up;)  Here is my Pinterest and by the weekend Nikki is going to make me a little Pinterest button for the blog and finish the summer makeover…my little heart is so excited!

Saw this on my friend Diana’s Pinterest and just had to have it!  This is SO applicable in so many ways!

Grace did a photo shoot for Nikki. Her eyes are speaking aren’t they?

FYI – I did finally do some housework;)

Pray for Gabi please.  Tomorrow is her surgery.

Well – that is a bit about my weekend what about yours?



Day 7 of 72 : feeling special

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Our Friday consisted of feeling special…it was my ” neice’s ” 7th birthday and we had




you know -” mom ” stuff but instead we

Let go and took a day to enjoy…

this precious little one’s birthday

getting pedicure’s

having lunch at Panera’s

Frozen yogurt at Orange Leaf

enjoyed the company of inspiring friends

while the kids went swimming….( and we enjoyed the Vitamin D )


Jacob where are you?:)  next time

one of my favorite memories from Friday was the birthday girl jumping out of the car saying….

I feel SO specialand she meant it.

and that is a little how I’m feeling these days…SPECIAL.  His love is penetrating my heart and I am feeling like a satisfied 7 year old on her birthday.  Thank you for reminding me how it feels to be 7!

I pray that today His love fully penetrate your heart and feel the surpassing love He has for you and that you KNOW you are special!

enjoying the beginning of summer with Jen tonight…come visit this week if you can?  ( it won’t be live until after 8pm central though:)

Happy Summer!


Day 6 of 72 : sometimes


“He’s fighting for your heart, and He’s going to win. He’s a man of war, and He’s going to win.”

via katespadeny

sometimes we don’t live to see the whole purpose for our lives…our children do.  Have you ever thought about that?  I may not see the bigger picture…just like David and Solomon.  The fulfillment maybe in my children’s/grand children’s lifetime.  This thought brings some peace.

sometimes God speaks to us even when when we have run…Moses fleeing the country and living as a foreigner in the land of Midian.  God spoke to him through the burning bush.  He was in the habit of talking/listening all day long.  He noticed the bush:)  That I may notice the bush.

sometimes you can look in the windows of a house that is under construction and live to tell about it…lol!  Today I did.   I stepped out of the boundaries I set for myself and stepped into the boundaries God wants to give me….they are much much bigger than my own I fear:).

sometimes God speaks and I hear and I do the hard thing…in obedience.  Because my heart wants what He wants for me…It is like my eyes were the same place as I left off.  I believe He wants me to learn something that I didn’t learn earlier.  We are picking up where we left off aren’t we Father…and I smile.  He loves me so.  I heard yesterday.  I wept with tears of joy..and I wrote the email and hit send before I could think about it.

This Thursday I have peace.

Have you ever heard God speak and it was uncomfortable to obey but you did anyway?
what happened if I may ask?

Ending the day with frozen yogurt…had a restful day with my best friend at the pool.  Watching our children play.  Today I have joy~





Day 5 of 72 : A little bit of Martha & Mary & a prayer for us

The hard lesson of the Wednesday: in seeking peace – deepen my relationship

by taking Him with me in all things. A little Mary in the morning.  A little Martha throughout the day.  To have inner peace is to have a talking and listening relationship with God all day long.  He is literally here with me all of the time.  I am choosing to live each day in that reality.

bleu et blancphoto credit here

Being still body and soul as I read a little piece of the Bible..just enough. Then I pour out my heart .. for others, family, me and so forth.  Then I listen.  Quiet my voice in my head.  Listen.  Then I shower to get ready to go to the hospital for my Remicade and on the way there I turn off the radio and talk to Him and listen…talk and listen.

I talk to Him while I clean the kitchen.  do laundry.  as I’m walking.  at the grocery store.  talking to the nurses.  It is as if I am spending time with the person I am going to marry and spend the rest of my life with.  When you are in a crisis who is the first flesh person you want to call?  or you have the best news who do you want to call?  I will usually think of a best friend, mom or your spouse.  I thank you today for the hardship you have resurfaced where I left off.  There is obviously something you want to teach me.  Your not going to leave me like this.  I surrender today to You and will continue to foster a deeper relationship with you so that in a crisis or in a moment of joy YOU are the first one I call.  I will practice taking you everywhere with me today. Talking and Listening.

I prayed this for me and I also pray this for all of you today:

I bow my knees before Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant me/you according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in my/your inner man; so that Christ may dwell in mine/your hearts through faith; and the I/you being rooted and grounded in love,
may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that we may be filled up to all the fullness of God.
Now to Him who is able to do exceeding abundantly beyond all we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever.  Amen.

” I pray that His power fill all of our empty places FULL and that we find ourselves satisfied in Him and not in anything or anyone else…that we let Him fill us full! “


satisfied today~