sometimes healing is inside. where the human eye cannot see. much time can go by..years in fact where we lose hope and begin to be wooed by the lies designed to keep bound and far from the freedom we are offered. That you were made this way and nothing will ever change and where is this power that You speak about? If I’m made to live this life in freedom and power where is it because I want it..I spoke some weeks ago. You have lovingly allowed me to carry all of this around until I couldn’t do it in my strength or anyone else’s… any longer.
After several years away from You after being so close and I wanted to come home and you spoke from your Word to me in Revelation 2:4 that I left my first love. because I didn’t know where to start…and it was with these words that my path began to turn around. I didn’t know it at the time…I didn’t feel it I just began to put You back into my life. And with much ups and downs..here I am almost 3 years later and time is not relevant to Him. Am I making progress or am I just stuck here treading I ask? The lie is that I really do not having any power..it is His power I am learning to reach for..filling my empty places with His bright blue sky kinda power.
I am not a victim and I refuse to be stuck. I am making progress. How do I know? I have looked back and am seeing inside healing. The way I am living life everyday is different. Not to say I don’t have deep valley’s of despair on this journey but He has given my new eyes to see differently..to see myself differently which means I respond differetly. I think the lapse in time is inside healing time because I could not..can not do what is ahead if my insides weren’t able to walk the next leg of the journey. Taking a deeup breath… I am jumping because I trust the One who is catching me. There I said it. No turning back. And I am awe..it is to marvelous how I am standing still and seeing with my new eyes..how He is moving things. I bow my heart and my knee to the One who sees all…and who sees me and loves me completely.
He won’t let me or you forget our way home
he writes my story into His song..my life for the glory of God~ ( Christa Wells )
how has He been writing your story? have you been healed inside and lived it on the outside?
p.s. One big thing He is healing is the way I view myself that translates into the way I dress. I have retired my logo t shirts from AE, Abercrombie and such. Nikki tells me I cannot shop in little girl stores anymore. And I happily agree. I am ready to dress like a woman and I couldn’t be more excited. Do I feel uncomfortable…absolutely! am I going to do it anyway? Absolutely:)
Tiffini, I think you said it so well here, He has given my new eyes to see differently..to see myself differently which means I respond differently." God IS more concerned with our hearts. When we allow Him to change that…our perspective and our responses will change. THAT's growth, girl!
I love the new eyes comment! That is growth…maturity…just to start to live out of the new heart & all that grants us. Good for you on the wardrobe! Living on the outside what we've been given on the inside is a process in itself. I walk with you there!
Blessings, Robyn Q
You are beautiful. Love your dress and hair. You look happy and healthy. You are living. Choosing the narrow path is confined but it is beauty-full.
you are a beautiful woman, and I hear you in this so much. And at the end when you spoke of changing the way your dress? Yes, I have gone from trend to classy but still cute…..that is what you are in this picture!
well i feel a little lost lately. i get this and i know He won't let me stray. i know this! beautiful thoughts and that pic is lovely…a framed keeper for sure.
This post gave me chills for you. And chills for what God can and will do.
Xo,
Linsey
PS – I like the new blog look.
Only God can change a heart . . . isn't it cool that He is changing yours.
Fondly,
Glenda