from the youngest memory I have I’ve always known this isn’t how it is supposed to be. I’ve fought against something I didn’t understand … until recently. Like the pieces of a puzzle God has slowly shown me the border pieces and the last one fell into place yesterday.
I see broken things. I’m broken. I believe God is calling modern day Daniel’s, Joseph’s and Nehemiah’s…we are in a time when His word in Romans 13:11 is coming to life…now is the time for all to awaken from sleep.
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In 1996 God quickened Isaiah 58: 8-12 to life sitting in a room one day..for the first time when I was reading the Bible..the words jumped out at me.
I have been praying for a couple of days…God, what am I supposed to be doing? Do I keep blogging? I feel torn to LIVE. Sitting in front of a computer all the time isn’t living. Texting, Facebooking, TV…technology…what I call living distracted is not working for me. I must be missing something you want me to know. Why are the doors closed for me a way out? What am I supposed to do when a year from now the whole thing plays over AGAIN? I’m losing my health, my mind and my children. No answer. Nothing new. Fast forward to yesterday.
I was prompted to read Nehemiah. End of story. I knew…my secret name. I’m a rebuilder. He has given me a rebuilder’s heart. I’ve always had a love for Nehemiah. Now I know why. I believe this will become a series for me… How to rebuild in scorched places…”seemingly” dying places. What it looks like in real life…this rebuilding. It goes right along with Isaiah 58.
I’m ready to live life. I’m ready to enter in to possess. I don’t know what it is going to look like but I am going to document it all here. On my blog. I can let the waves spill all over this place but I am choosing not to do that anymore. Please pray for me if you think of it. My body is literally falling apart right now. I am so good at putting a smile on and sucking it up. It is as natural as opening my eyes in the morning. I have a Drs. appt on Monday and Tuesday. Please pray for a direction and some answers.
I’m ready to begin filling in the inner part of the puzzle now. Has He shown you your secret name? ( a good book by the way) I read it several months ago and prayed what mine was…I thought it might have been belong. Was I wrong. I knew it when He showed it to me that this was it.
Rebuilder…I rather like it:)
Happy Friday and much XOXO,
I will be praying for you. I've been in the place where my body was breaking down, I felt like I was dying, I was walking through the valley of the shadow of death, but He healed, He restored, He let me live. I truly learned through that season that He is the giver of life. That my life is completely in His hands. And that I will not die until it is His will. I will be praying for you.
Yes, the Lord gave me my secret name 20 yrs ago. It is Mary. He whispered into my spirit "you are a Mary and I want you to give your children to be raised in My house." Since then He has given me depths of understanding to having a Mary heart but it can all be summed together in the simplicity of Luke 10:42 that Mary has chosen the one thing that is needed…sitting at His feet listening to His every word.
May He shelter you in the days ahead. {{hugs}}
ox kerrie
You will be in my prayers too. Your post made me think of the Newsboys song You Build Us Back. So thankful He restores us!
Friend – Your on my heart more than you know. You have so much for others, what a beautiful vessel that you are! Pain is an amazing tool in our lives. It can drive us or confuse us and wear us down to accept less than what we deserve. Your being driven to the right One and He will direct your path as you continue delighting in Him. I feel your pain and am praying for your body to line up with His healing Word! Love ya! Amy
I've never heard of this book and want to read it…if I can ever finish the books I'm on now. Thanks for sharing!!!
This is so powerful, Tiffini!
I want to read this book.
I want to know my secret name.
I want to witness your seeking.
Here's to many happy moments
this weekend!
xx Suzanne
I am praying for wisdom for you and the doctors. I pray that your body can begin rebuilding, too. I love the book of Nehemiah. My sweet dad, wrote a book on it.
fondly,
Glenda
Praying, praying, praying for you! I am happy to hear you will be sharing your journey. Share the naked truth, girl! I am so excited because I know God is bigger than what you see & feel. I can see life starting to really take hold in you. In your thoughts and your emotions, even amongst the cold winds of adversity. I just love the spirit in you. Be blessed with the power of the Holy Sweet Spirit today!
@Amy, what you said,"pain is an amazing tool in our lives" – I couldn't agree more & dislike the truth of it at times! I will reflect on this today because there is such hidden promises there. Thank you.
Oh Sweet Tiffini,
There is no doubt that God will heal your hurting body. He loves you so and has you wrapped in His arms daily. Your words are always heartfelt and sent from the Father above. I love how you wait for just the right time to let them out. Thank you for being willing to be used by Him. What a Friend we Have in Jesus!
I love you sweet friend!
XOXO Paula